How do I tell my girlfriend goodbye before I go through with suicide

[Druggieboi07]

So I've been with my girlfriend since November, she has had a lot of people die by suicide, she has been raped multiple times and is already a depressive. I need to know how to say my goodbyes and minimize the impact on her. I've tried to kind of distance myself from her before, it didn't work I've tried to get her to distance herself from me by just being an asshole to her, didn't work. I seriously don't know what to do about this. She has done so much for me, she got me to quit drinking and she got me to stop doing morphine. Honestly the only thing I can think of right now is to drink pretty much all the time so she will leave me, because she hated it so much

 

[rottenflesh]

please dont try to push her away by hurting her. I dont know if you wanna do the same as me but i'll just call mine a few hours before committing so i can explain everything and say goodbye.

 

[AnonymousL]

So I've been with my girlfriend since November, she has had a lot of people die by suicide, she has been raped multiple times and is already a depressive. I need to know how to say my goodbyes and minimize the impact on her. I've tried to kind of distance myself from her before, it didn't work I've tried to get her to distance herself from me by just being an asshole to her, didn't work. I seriously don't know what to do about this. She has done so much for me, she got me to quit drinking and she got me to stop doing morphine. Honestly the only thing I can think of right now is to drink pretty much all the time so she will leave me, because she hated it so much

Write her a super long note.
Explaining everything and that it isn't her fault

 

[myopia]

Personally, I'm going to tell my best friend that I'm moving so I have an excuse to say a proper goodbye. I don't know if this would be believable for you, but in my case, I've been talking about potentially moving to Canada for a while, so it all checks out.

I subconsciously distanced myself from all my close friends once I realized I was serious about CTB, but I wish I didn't. It hurts so bad. I don't know if it will make it easier on them in the long-term, but in the short-term, I just made them resent me. Their last memories of me will be of me hurting them. I hate that.

 

[LunarLight]

please dont try to push her away by hurting her. I dont know if you wanna do the same as me but i'll just call mine a few hours before committing so i can explain everything and say goodbye.

She's gonna call an ambulance or the cops. Bad idea. I'd rather write a note. That's something from you she can keep with her.

 

[Little_Suzy]

If she's traumatized and you've only been together since November, consider moving on. You seem to be conflicted and overwhelmed right now.

I can't help but feel sympathy for her, as I understand all too well the overwhelming weight of grief. If you stay with her until the end, avoid alcohol and treat her with respect.

During your time together, do everything possible to make her feel loved and valued. It will bring her comfort to know that you chose kindness to heal the relationship.

 

[Druggieboi07]

If she's traumatized and you've only been together since November, consider moving on. You seem to be conflicted and overwhelmed right now.

I can't help but feel sympathy for her, as I understand all too well the overwhelming weight of grief. If you stay with her until the end, avoid alcohol and treat her with respect.

During your time together, do everything possible to make her feel loved and valued. It will bring her comfort to know that you chose kindness to heal the relationship.

I honestly feel like I have to stay with her until the end, I've tried so many times to move on but every time she knows exactly what I'm up to and she basically always manages to keep me here longer. We both love each other way too much considering the circumstances