Help how do i leave a detailed plan behind

[ungodly]

does anybody know any way i can stop fixating on suicide now that i have a plan? i understand that suicidal thoughts by themselves aren't treatable and managing them is just part of the recovery process but i wanna know if theres a way i can stop fixating on suicide now that i have a specific plan in mind. im really trying to give myself some grace and be more open w my therapist and people around me when im struggling, but even though it wouldnt be for awhile and entirely depends on external factors i have no control over i know these next few months are gonna be really big for me and i don't wanna impulsively kill myself if something doesn't go my way now that i know how and when i'd do it

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

Honestly, when I find myself having those thoughts, I try to get them out of my head as much as possible, like going out on a walk, watching a movie I love, listening to some music, or just talking to someone casually.

 

[m1v]

I relate a lot. Personally, reading books takes my mind off suicide. For me, I see my "detailed plan" as comfort. Knowing i have somewhere to go if things turn for the worst. However I think it would be a good idea to leave the plan behind (in my case, throw it away). Take care of yourself <3