How do I get through the holidays before I ctb?

[Comatose11]

So I'm going to try and get through the holidays... sigh... but I really don't want to be here. The holidays are pointless imo, but they're important to other people for some reason. So, anyway, how are other people coping? I'm at the point now where even going to the store feels like a chore. It's harder than it should be to do anything.

 

[BellaKAT]

the holidays are usually pretty depressing for me, not sure if i'll make through this year or not. i'll be alone at home for the week of christmas it'll also be my birthday week -roomates gone. i might just do it then if i get depressed enough.

 

[Crest33]

The holidays are a time of feeling even more lonely. I really feel like missing out on life. If I'd ctb chances are high it would be during the holidays because it gives me excellent chances to dissappear.

 

[Empty Smile]

Im struggling just to get through these next few weeks. Fuck xmas and everything that comes with it.

 

[Sinbad]

It's the most terrible time of the year. (melody)

My strategy: avoid, pretent, and say less then nessesary.

 

[dyingtodie]

I'm dreading the days to come. Seriously just distracting myself til I'm motivated enough to get my supplies and re-read my method technique for proper peaceful exit home. Or at least, off this Hellish Earth. I think this is a great month to go, holiday season, let people know 'the kids aren't alright'. Hopefully trigger some introspection, but honestly I just want an end to my personal hell, that's my truest motivation. Sucks, cause in this year I've been increasingly suicidal my self-love has risen to meet the despair making it harder to exit...but now I love myself so, a compassionate end is the most loving offering I could make to my soul who's trapped in this dimension.

 

[Empty Smile]

It's the most terrible time of the year. (melody)

My strategy: avoid, pretent, and say less then nessesary.

I was listening to the radio this morning, and John Boy and Billy came up with a xmas song called "Please stay home for Christmas." Can't remember the lyrics, but it actually made me smile and think, hell yes, that's me!

 

[GeorgeEastman]

The worst part about Christmas is having to stock up on food the day before. Every damn thing is closed on Christmas except gas stations. Last year, I was stuck eating overpriced gas station molded lunch meat.

Not doing that again this year. Gas stations really don't have any damn food. All this money and can't even buy something to eat. That's what Christmas means to me. Well, that and thinking it's a great day to blow my head off on.

 

[Throwawaysoul]

@GeorgeEastman

Chinese food is great for Thanksgiving and Xmas for us lonely folks. Still over priced though.

 

[stargazer]

I also don't want to be around for Christmas, but it's looking like I'll have to be, unless something comes up in the partners mega thread. Ideally I would like to leave before Christmas to avoid all the usual festive mess. Nothing but chores and awkward conversations with family. Being under-employed sucks.

 

[OkTotti]

I also don't want to be around for Christmas, but it's looking like I'll have to be, unless something comes up in the partners mega thread. Ideally I would like to leave before Christmas to avoid all the usual festive mess. Nothing but chores and awkward conversations with family. Being under-employed sucks.

I wouldn't keep your hopes up in finding a partner in a tight time frame no matter how desperate you are, you'll just end up disappointed.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

All I want for christmas or any day for that matter is for death to be quick, painless, and in my sleep.

 

[stargazer]

All I want for christmas or any day for that matter is for death to be quick, painless, and in my sleep.

Pretty much.

 

[Louise]

I'll be on my own at home with a room mate who gets on my nerves lol. Am hoping to make the Christmas week as much like any other as possible. No ctb to look forward to for the New Year either. Hope to cuddle up to my cat and online bf and do as little as possible.

 

[stargazer]

I wouldn't keep your hopes up in finding a partner in a tight time frame no matter how desperate you are, you'll just end up disappointed.

Maybe. You never know, quite a few guests and lurkers visits SS each and every day it's up. I may have to wait longer, or I may not. But preferably, Christmas/New year plus a planned holiday from January 2-8 would all be a real drainer.

But, I don't want to end up in hospital, jail, or disabled/injured and alive. So that's worth equal consideration to my mind.

It does take longer and more effort waiting for a partner. But I feel like I'll fail otherwise.

It's a lot of work, but at least I tell myself I have "worked" for it. Haha.

 

[Sanguinius]

Let's party in the chat then ^-^

 

[ReadyasEver]

Man I understand people's plight here. I have to come at it from a different angle. I'm going to enjoy this one, definitely be my last season. Either the disease or CTB will take me before the next holiday season. If it's going to be your last one, live it up the best you can. Not everybody can do this, I understand this. For me, it gives a sense of completion. Removing all the what if's, maybes, therefores gives me a sense of relief and calmness.