How do I get help without going to the hospital?

[takeyourshotfunboy]

99% of me wants to die, but the other 1% believes that I can be saved. Only one person knows that I am currently self harming and no one knows that I want to kill myself. I do have the pills I am going to use. And in the words of our lord and savior Trent Reznor "I'm starting to scare myself again." I do have a therapist but lord knows that if I tell him, I will get hospitalized again. This is bad mainly because I have overheard my mom complaining about me being in and of mental hospitals (even though I've only been there twice so far). What should I do?

 

[*KNAZ*]

When in doubt, sometimes it helps to wait it out. Not taking action is a valid action.

No one can really tell you what to do, but you can always find people here who will listen , really listen, to you and any venting you want/need to do.

For the record moms always exaggerate as it sounds like your mom is doing with her expression of you being in and out of hospitals when it's only been twice as you said. Maybe she needed to vent to someone as well?

 

[woxihuanni]

You are always welcome to share with us here. No dumb suggestions, no dumping in the ward.

 

[Sweet emotion]

99% of me wants to die, but the other 1% believes that I can be saved. Only one person knows that I am currently self harming and no one knows that I want to kill myself. I do have the pills I am going to use. And in the words of our lord and savior Trent Reznor "I'm starting to scare myself again." I do have a therapist but lord knows that if I tell him, I will get hospitalized again. This is bad mainly because I have overheard my mom complaining about me being in and of mental hospitals (even though I've only been there twice so far). What should I do?

First and foremost. Make sure you have enough pills and the certain kind you need to actually stop your heart. If you want to let me know what you have I'll tell you.