Help How do I deal with constant name calling?

[Bartlebee]

Hey everyone, I've made plans for the New Year to finally tackle my obesity problem. The last time I weighed myself I was 390lbs but I checked last week and I'm now down to 367lbs. However I'm having some issues dealing with this and its making me consider some extreme options.

I'm homeless and live in a hostel, my roommate is kinda nice but we aren't super close, he has his own group of friends. However a lot of the people that live in my hostel are very nasty to me. Calling me horrible names both behind my back and to my face. I can't report this behaviour to anyone else because a lot of the people here are ex-convicts and operate on a "snitches get stitches" mentality. But I know if I try and raise my voice or my fist to defend myself I'll be kicked out at best and jailed for assault at worst.

I feel like a ticking time bomb about to go off, I'll snap and without realising it I'll be throwing my life away. Suicide feels like the only option for me right now as even with a calorie deficit and going to the gym every day it'll take at least two years before I'm at an acceptable weight for people.

I just can't take it anymore. I can't. If anyone has any ideas how I can calm myself amd deal with it please let me know.

 

[Worndown]

Some people are asses. No way around that. Too fat, thin, tall, short, butch, feminine, preppy, grungy...they will have some deep wisdom to share.
Try to feel bad for them.
You can loose weight.
They will always be an ass.