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wellworthwit
Member
- Jul 26, 2023
- 14
I'm brand new to the forum, have read a lot of threads on here the last week and im relieved to see there's quite a few people who have a lot of time spent on here without deciding to ctb.
I don't know how to put it into words but basically I feel suicidal almost every day, but at the same time I do not want to die at all. I am not really scared of death but I cannot imagine myself actually going through with ctb. Am I just idealizing the thought of suicide? Am I even suicidal?
Sorry for rambling and maybe it's completely incoherent, but does anyone else feel the same way/similarly?
I don't know how to put it into words but basically I feel suicidal almost every day, but at the same time I do not want to die at all. I am not really scared of death but I cannot imagine myself actually going through with ctb. Am I just idealizing the thought of suicide? Am I even suicidal?
Sorry for rambling and maybe it's completely incoherent, but does anyone else feel the same way/similarly?