alivefornow

alivefornow

thinking about it
Feb 6, 2023
166
Got caught with SN and put into shitty psych ward for 4 months.
 
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Jamesun

Jamesun

I'm just a person
Feb 23, 2022
118
They really don't care much about me, I tried to ask for help with them but was just ignored.
 
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beelzebul

beelzebul

(;´д`)ゞ
Oct 10, 2023
123
devastated... but at the same time, i don't think they believe me?
 
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𝐒𝐚𝐤𝐮 ☆

𝐒𝐚𝐤𝐮 ☆

Mommy?
Mar 8, 2022
27
"who will pay for your funeral?"
 
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dragonofenvy

dragonofenvy

Mage
Oct 8, 2023
564
The first words out of my mother's mouth when I told her were "I don't care."

My dad on the other hand... it was the first and last time I had ever seen him cry.
 
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starry Milky Way

New Member
Oct 12, 2023
3
I got yelled at and guilt tripped
 
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iamalreadydead

iamalreadydead

Student
Nov 25, 2022
139
when i was 11 and tried it they sent me to school the next day and years later during a therapy session my mom said she thought it was for attention, shes retarded and i hope she dies soon lol
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,047
No change not surprisingly they didn't give a shit before and didn't after finding out. The general impression is they just don't want to be (further) culpable for my death by knowing it ahead of time.
 
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totalselfhatred

totalselfhatred

Member
Aug 27, 2023
36
They usually ignore me but when I almost overdosed on meds they yelled at me while I was vomiting and bawling my eyes out.
 
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lovedread

lovedread

hell is other people
Jan 2, 2020
213
That im an embarrassment
 
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sadidiot0328

sadidiot0328

I feel like I died long ago
Jun 1, 2023
89
My mom was very upset, and cried when she found the note I had written a couple years ago. My Dad on the other hand told me not to kill myself or I'd be a coward, and said I was selfish. So two very different reactions.
 
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fleetingnight

fleetingnight

incapable of shutting up
May 2, 2024
647
It's hard to remember that period of time, I was dissociating a lot. I know they actually tried to be supportive, which was kinda surprising. They didn't react super well to the underlying issues/reasons why I wanted to, but I know I'm very lucky they even took it seriously and weren't awful to me. There's a long family history of suicide, likely part of why they knew I was serious
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,331
My mom, she's strong mentally. I mean she takes medication to help her bipolar disorder much is probably what does it, but she'll sometimes tell me she loves me and that she's there for me even when I haven't lead her to believe I'm suicidal in the last 5 years.

I'm closer with my dad, but he's weaker. I think I traumatized him or something on my last attempt, he ended up in a worse state of mind than me. Wouldn't speak for hours on end and would just shake in place for a few days. I try to talk about how I'm suicidal with him, but he shuts down the conversation.
 
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leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)
Nov 25, 2023
1,212
I only have one parent and I don't share stuff like that with her.
 
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Alltheywanted

Alltheywanted

Nobody knows what I see
Mar 6, 2023
331
My mother was screaming from mental pain, she was insulting me for me wanting to kill myself. She's very, very emotional kind of person.

My dad however didn't bother at first but next day came to my room and it was the first time I've seen him crying.

This felt bad af and if I could rewind the time, I wouldn't tell them. It only made things harder and more awkward :/
The only good thing about all this is that now I have very sweet and helpful therapist.
 
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astonishedturnip

astonishedturnip

Like Christine Chubbuck, but sadder
Jan 16, 2024
224
Got freaked out and asked if they should take away my gun. I had so few fucks to give that I straight-up told them to not bother, I would just find another way. (And I paid a lot for that thing) Still don't know how I got away with that one lol. Their surprise made sense since I had made zero indication or warnings beforehand to them besides your basic empty threats when I was younger.

There was a lot of them trying to talk sense into my motivations and making me see a way out. Still not sure about that part. But they were finally convinced that it was necessary for me to try therapy and ADs after decades of insisting that it was a reflection of poor parenting if us kids ever got to that point.

They checked in on me a bit after that (especially after I started ADs) but have since started obviously trying to forget it ever happened, aside from being more sensitive when I make your typical millennial suicide joke. I feel bad placing that burden on them but tbh it was nice to get it off my chest and make them aware of what I was going through. The downside being that our relationship has improved, which means I'm even more suicidal when thinking of their eventual passing lmao.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
842
I told my parents when I was 15 and struggling in high school, they told me just to wait until college, it'll be better. Didn't offer to really talk about it, didn't offer counseling or therapy, nothing. 25 years later and my depression has only gotten worse and here I am. 🤷
 
AlexYaBoy

AlexYaBoy

The Lord of Dribblers
Mar 11, 2024
134
My mother's old-fashioned. She cares, but she's not a psychiatric professional nor clinician. Could probably hang myself right now, and it wouldn't raise too many eyebrows.
 
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