I have been trying to CTB for a long time now and i just feel so numb and hollow. I have had a lot of failed attempts, though i think im getting closer every day. I feel like im dissociating or something similar all the time now (is this what derealization feels like?). It feels like im here but im not, if that makes sense. I don't have anything left in me and i just feel floaty and dazed most the time now. Im going through the motions but that's about all. Im taking this as a sign that my body is finally stopping the fight against it. Is this a shared experience?
