How did you know it is your time to go

[justfloating]

For those of you who have made arrangements, or even just are certain you with CTB, how did you know it was your time ?

Mostly asking in terms of emotional state, but also situational.

 

[Jean4]

When the pain is more than any good things in your life.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

When the pain is more than any good things in your life.

According to this my time is well overdue :)

 

[elfgyoza]

You just kind of know, it's hard to describe. When I attempted last summer, I'd never felt so calm leading up to it. I knew I was ready. I didn't feel emotional, I was at peace and the day leading up to it was super chill because nothing mattered anymore.

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

For those of you who have made arrangements, or even just are certain you with CTB, how did you know it was your time ?

Mostly asking in terms of emotional state, but also situational.

I guess when you think long enough and In pain for too long. But you just know when you want to CTB by yourself. Are you asking when I'm going to CTB or when I found out I want to CTB

 

[justfloating]

I guess when you think long enough and In pain for too long. But you just know when you want to CTB by yourself. Are you asking when I'm going to CTB or when I found out I want to CTB

like how you know its the right choice for you ?

also, if you don't mind me asking, when did you decide and when are your plans, like how long is your gap ?

You just kind of know, it's hard to describe. When I attempted last summer, I'd never felt so calm leading up to it. I knew I was ready. I didn't feel emotional, I was at peace and the day leading up to it was super chill because nothing mattered anymore.

I kinda feel at peace with the idea. like im calm about it but im also really scared, hard to explain

 

[the_inbetween]

Nothing is enjoyable, sluggish, everything takes lots more effort than the usual low.

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

like how you know its the right choice for you ?

We all have different beliefs and morals but suicide is the last choice, it's always a choice but should always be the very last. Once you've exhausted all of your choices then I guess you can look into it. I don't remember exactly when but it was a few months ago, the pain got so much worse and I just thought about suicide since it comforted me and I stuck with it. My method is SN! And my CTB date is this April 4 but I might just CTB anytime this month or March sooo.

 

[Marchioness]

You just kind of know, it's hard to describe. When I attempted last summer, I'd never felt so calm leading up to it. I knew I was ready. I didn't feel emotional, I was at peace and the day leading up to it was super chill because nothing mattered anymore.

Yeah, I attempted and failed a few weeks ago. I was pretty calm as well.

 

[TAW122]

After many years of suffering, things getting better (temporarily) only for them to worsen yet again, rinse and repeat, I knew my time is near. I consider myself on borrowed time.

 

[Largeletters]

For those of you who have made arrangements, or even just are certain you with CTB, how did you know it was your time ?

Mostly asking in terms of emotional state, but also situational.

When I realized I probably will never stop feeling this way, whether in small increments or all at once.

 

[BPD Barbie]

When nothing else mattered, when I stopped caring completely. When nothing felt right or good, when happiness seemed impossible. When it felt like the hole I had dug was now too deep to climb out of and the darkness was suffocating.

 

[issyishere]

I stopped finding enjoyment in my hobbies and began using them as a crutch to distract myself from my shitty life. Whenever i loved being asleep and dreaming because it was like being in a new world without any of my problems. Whenever I had nightmares and I woke up I'd initially be relieved than broke down when i remembered what my real life was like.

 

[Largeletters]

I stopped finding enjoyment in my hobbies and began using them as a crutch to distract myself from my shitty life. Whenever i loved being asleep and dreaming because it was like being in a new world without any of my problems. Whenever I had nightmares and I woke up I'd initially be relieved than broke down when i remembered what my real life was like.

Wow, I'm so sorry.

 

[Mr2005]

I'm still not sure and don't really want to find out

 

[LastRide]

After many years of suffering, things getting better (temporarily) only for them to worsen yet again, rinse and repeat, I knew my time is near. I consider myself on borrowed time.

Hello there you who are on borrowed time....that's me where I am right now ! Health issues are getting worse every week....I just do not want to let them take me by surprise, better get ahead and ctb of my own choice at the time of my own choosing....just makes me feel more in control and makes me happy right now since I know I have a way out and do not need to wait until it just happens to me...I am not scared anyways but I just want to stay in control and not just let it happen to me....

 

[ladolcemorte]

When I realized I had ruined my career. Everything I had worked for over many years. All the financial and emotional sacrifices just gone down the tubes.

That moment when I knew it was irrevocably and irreparably ruined, that is when I booked a flight to my suicide location. The attempt was thwarted and I ended up in the hospital and now I am doing all this therapy, but none of it can salvage the unsalvageable.

The sad thing is, the therapy might have been effective earlier. But now it is too late. I burned it all down. There is nothing to go back to even if I do manage to get well again.