Story How did you feel when you first learned about death as a child?

[dearlybeloved998]

I think I was scared and that day I had one of my first, if not my very first existential crisis. I was terrified that one day I would just cease to be, in the same way that I did not exist before I was born. Complete non-existence, complete darkness. But at the same time, from a yooung age I had a very pessimistic and gloomy prespective on life, so I also felt somewhat relieved in case some day in the future I decided life was not worth living, an ideas that I have flirted with many times through out my life. I remember at the age of 12 I spend a full day contemplating death and what it feels like completely cease to be, something that on the one hand I fantasized about, but on the other hand looked absoloutely terrifying without a paradisial afterlife waiting for me on the other side. That day I decided that life was too short to rejoice, and too long to grieve. Now that I am older I believe in an afterlife, and am no longer an atheist so death seems like a true blessing to me and nothing more. It would come tommorrow and I would not care less, I would only be relieved.

 

[art]

When I was 12 or so and came back from a 14 days school trip, my parents told me, that during my absence my grandfather has died due to a heart attack and the same night my grandmother felt into coma und passed away a few days later due to broken heart syndrome.

They told me also, a teacher found it a bad idea to inform me earlier. So the funerals were already over. I found that not very amusing.

Since that day I started to investigate death, afterlife all these things also on a scientific base for more than 40 years, made EVP experiments for 7 years, counseled people. For me there is no doubt, that there is an afterlife. Not on a religious base. It's some kind of universal dimension.

Graveyards do mean nothing to me. The souls are anywhere but for sure not in the grave. It's nice to have a place for a memory for some people, but I have absolutely no connection to that, probably because due to my ban from the funeral of my grandfather and grandmother.

My wife is always in my mind. There is the place for my eternal love to her and there is only one thing important to me, the reunion with her.

I have absolutely no fear of death due to my knowledge and my own experiences.
They only thing I fear is, that something can go wrong and that I will survive with damages the day after I have decided, that it is enough.

I absolutely resonate with you....

Love we feel for our special ones must remains after death anyway.
I hope to find my loved ones who dead when I exit and the reunion with them is my objetive.
Dear @FromGermany ,
I must tell you I really feel very grateful about all the knowledge you share. You share in scientific but in personal emotional way too, and that helps me a lot. I Would like know more about your investigation and own experiences...
I must recognize I feel emotions so intense that sometimes the only way i find to let them go is by playing the piano. May be a way to conect with the ones we love and passed away. Love xx

 

[FromGermany]

I absolutely resonate with you....

Love we feel for our special ones must remains after death anyway.
I hope to find my loved ones who dead when I exit and the reunion with them is my objetive.
Dear @FromGermany ,
I must tell you I really feel very grateful about all the knowledge you share. You share in scientific but in personal emotional way too, and that helps me a lot. I Would like know more about your investigation and own experiences...
I must recognize I feel emotions so intense that sometimes the only way i find to let them go is by playing the piano. May be a way to conect with the ones we love and passed away. Love xx

Thank you very much for your kind words. We are flying in the same spheres. As love also music is an universal power, Even some stars in the universe are making music. Music has a positive influence to plants.

My old brown Poodle, almost blind, passed away some years ago, he loved to hear Vivaldi's Four Season so much. I played it for him on the TV, and he was going very close to the screen to hear it and he really enjoyed it.



"I hope to find my loved ones who dead when I exit and the reunion with them is my objetive."

That's what connects us on a very deep level.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

"It's a long time away and why worry because In the end
JC is coming to take you to god"

Both of those thoughts are rubbish