How depressed are you?

[depressionkills]

As the title says, how depressed are you?

Personally, I have reached the point of full and complete anhedonia. Don't experience any pleasure, don't care for anything, lay in bed most of day. Can't remember last time I woke up and was excited about life. I literally don't have any fight left in me.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

I'm so depressed, I feel in a state of panic most of the time because of my lack of any kind of joy.
I don't remember the last time I really laughed at something.
I don't look forward to anything.
No purpose.

 

[rt1989526]

Ya I'm toast. Complete anhedonia, I can't enjoy anything. I need to end this.

 

[Tabbyql]

Unbelievabley. I literally cannot laugh at anything, I don't look forward to anything, 0 interest. Whenever I get this low I know a ctb attempt is coming. I don't feel anything.

 

[leiche]

all this day i spent crying, the life is so freaking unfair

 

[Despairing]

I literally wake up and the first thing I feel around my body and in my head is anxiety.

 

[Anonymoussn]

I'm up and down. Some days I feel good and some bad, it seems to change in an almost daily basis. Health issues are a major cause of my depression, and I'm waiting to see a specialist (in the next 4-6 weeks hopefully...) so I'm just trying to hang in there and ride through the lows, in the event that they can help me. But some days it feels like a losing battle.

 

[Anthagonos]

Similar here...

As the title says, how depressed are you?

Personally, I have reached the point of full and complete anhedonia. Don't experience any pleasure, don't care for anything, lay in bed most of day. Can't remember last time I woke up and was excited about life. I literally don't have any fight left in me.

I feel the same. I would be all day in bed.
I dont enjoy anything. I dont want to fight for anything.

 

[Ayvoia]

I'm not entirely sure.. I'm on the autistic spectrum, and while it's not noticeable, I struggle to recognise or feel my emotions, unless they're particularly strong at the time..

That aside, a lack of interest in anything, no forward planning or foresight in my future, no real active pleasure in anything anymore, a resigned attitude towards my own life, and it's end.

I suppose I should be somewhat thankful that I don't really feel down, or sad or upset often, as I'm sure I would if I could recognise/experience emotions like others can.. But that said, I am rather frustrated, and as mentioned before, resigned.. at life.

Of course I can still laugh, or feel x emotion, however those times are fleeting, and at the end of the day, I'm not willing to give any effort to improve my life, or change my perspective yet again to get out of this rut, seems things mostly stay the same in life, and while I'm sure there are plenty who happen across enough of a change to go on, there are equally plenty whom don't.

TRDL: 6/10 depression, with an emphasis on fatalism

 

[softfuzzyman]

Very much same. Once, earlier in life, I reached a point where I was nearly catatonic, basically didn't move or do anything at all, just laid in bed and stared at the wall for days on end... I'm not quite that bad yet this time around tho I can feel myself giving up more and more and getting there which is why I wanna CTB before I do get there... now, I sleep most of the time and when I'm up I do at least kinda just watch youtube and netflix tho I can't really focus on it much and don't have any enjoyment from it, and eat a teeny tiny bit, but yeah, food doesn't taste good, I barely eat, barely get out of bed, can't clean or shower or do anything, don't socialize or talk to anyone or do any activities or go anywhere. Living like this sucks but I physically don't have the energy to do anything.

 

[Anthagonos]

Very much same. Once, earlier in life, I reached a point where I was nearly catatonic, basically didn't move or do anything at all, just laid in bed and stared at the wall for days on end... I'm not quite that bad yet this time around tho I can feel myself giving up more and more and getting there which is why I wanna CTB before I do get there... now, I sleep most of the time and when I'm up I do at least kinda just watch youtube and netflix tho I can't really focus on it much and don't have any enjoyment from it, and eat a teeny tiny bit, but yeah, food doesn't taste good, I barely eat, barely get out of bed, can't clean or shower or do anything, don't socialize or talk to anyone or do any activities or go anywhere. Living like this sucks but I physically don't have the energy to do anything.

Why do you think you are like that?

 

[FrankieVallie]

Up and down, but not in a bipolar sense. I have some very good days where I'm able to forget about many of my problems and suicidal thoughts, and truly enjoy life. However, I also have many horrible days where I'm clinging onto life by a thread and am almost ready to CTB. Overall, I've resigned myself to many of the sad realities of my life such as eternal loneliness, no true purpose, and being unable to see people in a good way. I've been lonely and without friends for so long it truly doesn't bother me anymore. I still have that basic human desire for companionship and care which I lack, but I've become incredibly good and suppressing and ignoring it. Of course, I've also resigned myself to the fact that I might CTB anytime. Thankfully, I still have plenty of energy left and can spend my time doing productive things if needed.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Wondering how I can get out of here (life) is all I really think about, all day, every day.

 

[Huntfish34]

Probably a 7 / 10 on the depression scale. Much like most of you guys.... Don't really Want to do Anything anymore,. No interest,. Nothing. God I wish I was just Dead already.

Thoughts and prayers are with you on your trek through this thing we call... Life. Be safe and God Bless You.

 

[softfuzzyman]

Why do you think you are like that?

I reckon it's the multiple diseases in my brain but who's to say for sure.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I don't know, to be honest. According to most of my "support team", I'm severely depressed. But I feel like I've manipulated them into believing that.

I've thought about it, and if I had a friend who was displaying the same symptoms as me, I would be so worried about them. I would think they were very, very depressed. So why do I constantly doubt myself?

 

[elfgyoza]

I don't know, to be honest. According to most of my "support team", I'm severely depressed. But I feel like I've manipulated them into believing that.

I've thought about it, and if I had a friend who was displaying the same symptoms as me, I would be so worried about them. I would think they were very, very depressed. So why do I constantly doubt myself?

Doubting yourself is probably the depression. I constantly tell myself I must be faking it, manipulating people for attention but tbh, would we really doubt ourselves if we weren't depressed?

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Doubting yourself is probably the depression. I constantly tell myself I must be faking it, manipulating people for attention but tbh, would we really doubt ourselves if we weren't depressed?

Well, it doesn't help that I've been told I'm exaggerating...but that's beside the point. I don't think we would, no.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Very depressed. This virus hasn't helped much with lockdown and everything else.

 

[Zorya]

Uncurable clinical depression, tried literally dozens of anti-depressants, didn't work.

 

[Sinai Silence]

I am a husk, anhedonia hits me as hard as ever. Nothing I do is for enjoyment anymore its always an escape. I hate it when people ask question like; "what do you do for fun?" I don't know what fun is anymore.
Everytime someone asks me if I have a S/O or am looking for love I die a bit inside. My answer is that I don't care about love but the truth is I don't know what love feels like.
Every emotion or feeling apart from pain and numbness are completely foreign to me. I try to remember a time I was truly happy but I don't even know if that's something I've experienced or not.

 

[Zorya]

Don't you enjoy anime (guessing seeing your avatar) ?

 

[SchizophrenicFantasy]

I've stopped feeling joy and any emotion for that matter I've been bound to my house for 3 weeks even my birthday yesterday i just cried all day. All i do know is listen to music and smoke weed and drink, can't eat can't sleep can't smile use to love drawing but stopped work used to be fun now i can't bring myself to show up anymore.. I don't know what fun is.. Dont know love anymore, i feel cold and unfeeling and alone just hoping that this next week of taking meds again is gonna make me able to feel something, if my mind stays set like it is now I will pack my stuff neatly sell my electronics (not my phone because i wanna be here until the last moment) send my kids and fiance away for the weekend and slip away in the last days I have in the apartment before I'm evicted

 

[Zorya]

I've stopped feeling joy and any emotion for that matter I've been bound to my house for 3 weeks even my birthday yesterday i just cried all day. All i do know is listen to music and smoke weed and drink, can't eat can't sleep can't smile use to love drawing but stopped work used to be fun now i can't bring myself to show up anymore.. I don't know what fun is.. Dont know love anymore, i feel cold and unfeeling and alone just hoping that this next week of taking meds again is gonna make me able to feel something, if my mind stays set like it is now I will pack my stuff neatly sell my electronics (not my phone because i wanna be here until the last moment) send my kids and fiance away for the weekend and slip away in the last days I have in the apartment before I'm evicted

Just like I said, don't give up, man, you're an artist, that's very impressive. I used to draw but stopped because of depression and abuse. Please try to get money from social service and survive. You are a very special person amongst herds of mindless sheeple.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Forgive me... is there an objective 10-point depression scale that exists? (I'll admit I had never heard the term "anhedonia" and had to look it up. It's possible there's a 10-point depression scale, like the 10-point pain scale, I don't know about.)

I'm only familiar with the PHQ-9. Today I'm at a 16 (moderately severe depression) which is the lowest I've been in weeks. I've been as high as 25 (out of 27).

 

[noname223]

I am bipolar. I am very depressed a 6/10 on the scale i would say. Antidepressants and other drugs help me to reduce the pain. I have agitated depressions with somatic pain. It feels really awful. But i know the feelings after mania with extreme more pain. So i try to live with this 6/10 depression.

 

[airboy_a380]

As the title says, how depressed are you?

Personally, I have reached the point of full and complete anhedonia. Don't experience any pleasure, don't care for anything, lay in bed most of day. Can't remember last time I woke up and was excited about life. I literally don't have any fight left in me.

That's my life to a tee.

Uncurable clinical depression, tried literally dozens of anti-depressants, didn't work.

Yeah I also tried most of them, didn't work. So the doctors were starting to prescribe anti psychotic meds. neddless to say I didn't take any of that crap. I'm depressed not psychotic.

 

[LenkaX]

Depression: 8/10
Suicidal thoughts: 9/10
Anhedonia: 10/10
Social Isolation: 10/10
Bitterness: 10/10

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I'd say 7/10 today

 

[XYZ]

Despite medication and years of therapy which gave me valuable insight and a range of useful techniques I am more depressed than ever. This weekend has been the worst of my life. I cried so much, I was afraid I would have a psychosis because I had two bad anxiety attacks in one day and I could not calm myself down.

I thought a lot about how many of us out there in this world suffer like this day in and day out. My heart breaks for us all.