How could I go on?

[dying]

I've been trying to act like I've been cured of my mental illnesses so that I soon wouldn't have to talk to the psychiatrist I've been seeing.
I hate talking about my struggles in such detail to someone who looks at you like you're trash. I thought it would all work out but know they stopped my psychosis prescription and I'm seeing ants again (imaginary beings). Why can't they just give me medication and leave me be? I hate this so much!