How come I have no one who wants to be around me?

[InsatiableEmptiness]

I have made connections in the past but they never last. I have no one in my life right now. Nobody cares if I wake up in the morning. I go months without anyone hugging me. I feel so cold. I feel so empty. The only time someone goes out of their way to even interact with me is if they need something from me. I feel like I'm just a tool being used by my family and "friends". I don't think I have any friends, they can go weeks without talking to me, and I think they prefer it that way. I don't think anyone really cares if I were to die. Every day is such an empty, fruitless existence. I don't want to be here anymore. Im not wanted here anyway.

 

[EmmaD]

I have made connections in the past but they never last. I have no one in my life right now. Nobody cares if I wake up in the morning. I go months without anyone hugging me. I feel so cold. I feel so empty. The only time someone goes out of their way to even interact with me is if they need something from me. I feel like I'm just a tool being used by my family and "friends". I don't think I have any friends, they can go weeks without talking to me, and I think they prefer it that way. I don't think anyone really cares if I were to die. Every day is such an empty, fruitless existence. I don't want to be here anymore. Im not wanted here anyway.

I'm really sorry to read how you're suffering I feel like a lot of SS members could relate to your experiences. You said about making connections that never last, have you been diagnosed with anything like bpd? As that's what I have, and part of it is having intense relationships that don't last.
You sound intelligent and sensitive and somebody well worth having as a friend, for what it's worth x

 

[exploitedbacteria]

Same. I've spent the last 3 years completely isolated from from any of the supposed "friends" I used to have. I've interacted with strangers, parents, doctors, therapists…but that's it. What's the point? Right?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Friends are just temporary. Once your mutual interests are no longer mutual, or they get into a relationship, the friendships fades away.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think the reality is that most people are too self centred to ever care about others, you certainly cannot trust and rely on people in this cruel world, this is sadly the reality. As humans we are all alone.

 

[InsatiableEmptiness]

I'm really sorry to read how you're suffering I feel like a lot of SS members could relate to your experiences. You said about making connections that never last, have you been diagnosed with anything like bpd? As that's what I have, and part of it is having intense relationships that don't last.
You sound intelligent and sensitive and somebody well worth having as a friend, for what it's worth x

I have only ever been diagnosed with anxiety and depression but it wouldn't really shock me if I had boderline personality disorder because I seem to equate my self worth a lot of the time to how people see and treat me. It sucks a lot. Thank you for your response

 

[immrw]

Same boat friend. People can go weeks without talking to me. It feels like I'm just not someone worth putting in effort for. Everyone else already has their best friends or groups, they don't see any value in adding me into their already thriving social life.

 

[InsatiableEmptiness]

I think the reality is that most people are too self centred to ever care about others, you certainly cannot trust and rely on people in this cruel world, this is sadly the reality. As humans we are all alone.

Not to sound super generic but I really blame how our society functions for a lot of our misery. People only really seem to live their lives around what they want to achieve and that rarely has to do with compassion for others. Most shallow people just care about the size of their wallet or their social status in relation to other people. It's such a waste of an existence and we all have to suffer because wealthy cunts just want more of our time and money.

Same boat friend. People can go weeks without talking to me. It feels like I'm just not someone worth putting in effort for. Everyone else already has their best friends or groups, they don't see any value in adding me into their already thriving social life.

I wonder. I don't know who is thriving during these times. Maybe the ones that can go a month without worrying about rent lol

Friends are just temporary. Once your mutual interests are no longer mutual, or they get into a relationship, the friendships fades away.

I often thought, is the only way to keep someone interested in you is to fuck them regularly? Maybe not during the times we were cavemen and women but god nowadays it seems like thats the only way to keep anyone around...