How close are you to CTB tonight?

[ddn.ctb]

Feeling close to 8 and 10 if the opportunities change

 

[g&hexmhn]

I was a few months away, but right now, I'm not sure I can even last a week. I want to CTB on the 20th, but I'm gonna have a movie night on Halloween with one of my online friends, and another one of my online friends will be visiting this January, so I genuinely have no idea what to do. I really just want to get it over with this Friday, but I can't.

 

[Tesha]

Too close. Too fucking close.

 

[NocturnILL]

Honestly, this is my final year. I don't like that I have to resort in a more violent way than I'd planned before but I also don't care anymore. I'm done.

 

[filthystray]

About a 9 but I have a plan that I want to stick to bad

 

[Meditation guide]

I don't yet have the right place or I would move up the schedule.

 

[BlazingBob]

I am in so much physical pain right now but can't take another dose of my opiate medication because I won't have enough until my next refill. I feel like stabbing myself in my fucking face. I'm so tired of dealing with chronic health problems.

 

[WretchedDreams]

About an 8 out of 10, but i don't have the guts, also my mind tortures me with overthinking. I am tired of being alive.

 

[FuneralCry]

Sadly I don't feel close enough to finally being at peace from the curse that is existence. It's horrible how it's purposely made so difficult to cease existing, for me all the methods are either inaccessible or risky, to have the option to fall asleep eternally with all future suffering prevented would be so relieving and ideal.

 

[Freyja13]

Prolly about a 1/10 since I don't have anything nearby that I can use. I cooouuuld drive up to the highway and step out in front of a semi but I really don't wanna do that. I just can't stop thinking about how if I did that I'd be fucking over someone else's life pretty much. Might do it eventually if I can't improve or continue not having anything else available. The emotional pain is just so much sometimes.

 

[tiredone]

I would say 9 or 10. I have almost everthing in place for next week. I was so bad tonight that i thought to do it, but chance to be found early or trauma to family stop me from doing it already. Currently these are my last days with my kids and they dont really want to spend much time together. So i just stick around while my ex makes me feel like unwanted intruder. Just to last till i can do it away from home. Although im in so much pain i was thinking of packing up and going away somewhere as it hurts horribly. I still hope for heart attack or something like that before time comes.

 

[LoveForMetal]

Probably not today, but i doubt, that I'll last another whole week
I nearly did it last weekend, but i hadn't properly reserched at that point, so it was to risky for me

 

[Agon321]

Very close. I'm planning CTB until the end of the year. I even had thoughts yesterday about doing it next week, but I'll probably hold off. This year must be my last and I'm sticking to it.

 

[Unknown21]

Feeling close to 8 and 10 if the opportunities change

Same here.

 

[iamsofkntired]

I'm very close and if i can right now i would but my birthday is coming up and i don't want my family to celebrate my birthday alone , I'll give them sometime

 

[tiltherainstops]

Last night was a solid 9, but still very early in planning. Now it's about a 7.