How close are you to commit suicide?

[lynnschronicles]

As close as I am to figuring out how to get an SN source again (got DMC like a year ago but didn't buy it in time )

 

[peewee]

im hoping in couple of days I have opportunity, but now my si is kicking in that getting close. it doesnt make sense because Im sufferung alot but as soon as i really think about ctb i get hopeful, but i know its the best thing for me. I think i just get sad thinking about how it will affect my loved ones
if I could get SN or KN....I found sources but afraid of a welfare check if i order them as im in the uk

 

[Hangman.]

I will do it immediately when I get the opportunity.

 

[hannu555]

If I could actually get SN from a reliable source for peace of mind, then maybe in a few months.

 

[whybother2002]

If my SN had arrived I'd do it tonight

 

[Cauliflour]

Right now? Don't really feel like it. Sucidal thoughts seem to come in waves for me nowadays even though it's not like I've done much to better myself in that time frame. In fact, I think my pallete of "safe foods" is starting to restrict again so maybe I'll be more inclined to be more active on here and get the thoughts back and rolling again idk. Been doing somewhat fine after I was like "probably gonna kill myself in 12 months" almost 2 months ago which I find kinda funny but hey I'm not complaining.

 

[Rqvn67]

The day they tell me that my brain cancer is progressing too quickly and start talking to me about end-of-life care.

 

[ConstantPain]

It varies quite a bit but today I'd say is an 8. I've had some dreams of dying lately (and yes they are the best I've ever had) but there's no more hesitation in them. It's just like I know it's happening and I close my eyes, my body gets really hot and then starts shutting down and it's amazing. The best ones have been jumping and in a vehicle flooring it into a tree, but I wasn't driving. They have me rethinking my plan a bit because I think I want to have that few seconds of awareness that it's really finally ending.

It's quite possible that I'm losing my job next week and then I might finally rise to the point of doing it.

 

[dissociation]

Days, weeks or months.