dinosavr
and if i’m turning blue please don’t save me 🌛
- Dec 14, 2023
- 666
I genuinely don't know what's real and what's delusional. Do I really want to die or does death just make sense to me as a positive concept?
How serious are my suicidal tendencies? Should I feel guilty for having people care about me or is my life in real danger? I ve never got to find out.
I've never attempted suicide and I feel like I would have attempted long time ago if that's what I wanted for real. I keep on accusing myself of lying but do I have any reason to lie? Dont think so. I keep most of my thoughts to myself, so it's technically not attention seeking. Or is it? On another level?
In other words: do I really want to die or is it just something I came up with for some kind of subconscious egoistic purpose? Is this even possible? How can you tell??
How serious are my suicidal tendencies? Should I feel guilty for having people care about me or is my life in real danger? I ve never got to find out.
I've never attempted suicide and I feel like I would have attempted long time ago if that's what I wanted for real. I keep on accusing myself of lying but do I have any reason to lie? Dont think so. I keep most of my thoughts to myself, so it's technically not attention seeking. Or is it? On another level?
In other words: do I really want to die or is it just something I came up with for some kind of subconscious egoistic purpose? Is this even possible? How can you tell??