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StellaOctangula

StellaOctangula

Is there cheese in the great beyond?
Dec 28, 2025
14
Genuine question: how do you guys live normal lives? Like working, studying for college, paying bills, stuff like that??

I'm stuck in a vicious cycle of using fiction to escape reality. It's gotten so bad that the world could be FALLING APART around me and all I can do is spend the entire day consuming media.

My daily life became:
something goes wrong in real life → i spend days escaping into fiction → repeat because avoiding it only makes the problem worse.
 
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aceHardlight

Not even sad, just dead inside
May 1, 2026
26
I didn't live a normal life for like 10 years, I tried over 20 medications and 5 different doctors/therapists over the years.
I never gave up trying new meds or therapies.

Now I am taking a cocktail of 3 medications which makes life worth living most of the time.

Without it, I'd be fucked. Also after all my years of experience I can confidently say that depression is 90% genetics/ brain chemistry.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
329
i dont live a normal life very often. sometimes i get energy and try to catch up. sometimes someone gets mad at me for being so behind and out of fear i do things. but mostly i am the same. i just sleep or escape to fiction. anythign i get done is extremely last minute or late past when i was meant to do it.
 
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SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
247
Genuine question: how do you guys live normal lives? Like working, studying for college, paying bills, stuff like that??

I'm stuck in a vicious cycle of using fiction to escape reality. It's gotten so bad that the world could be FALLING APART around me and all I can do is spend the entire day consuming media.

My daily life became:
something goes wrong in real life → i spend days escaping into fiction → repeat because avoiding it only makes the problem worse.
You found me at the right time! How is it that we're both in the same kind of puddle?

I am supposed to hurry up and get a job but after every single rejection and not hearing anything at all from employers, I sort of just mute the world and run to fiction. I write fanfictions, I write poems, I watch Thai GL lakorns, I listen to music, I look at reels... I just turn into this, sorry if I use this word so carelessly,

a retarded consoomer.

I'm literally that screaming wojak guy pointing at something in the distance.

I think most of us just have our own vices/coping mechanisms that we use to get through the day. Some are healthy and some aren't.

I never gave up trying new meds or therapies.

Now I am taking a cocktail of 3 medications which makes life worth living most of the time.

Without it, I'd be fucked. Also after all my years of experience I can confidently say that depression is 90% genetics/ brain chemistry.
Never give up. There are days where you'll feel like the drugs aren't doing shit but that's when you ought to fight the hardest since you lost your "crutches" and must fend for yourself without them. I salute you for keeping up and I hope that you keep seeing better days every time one or two went badly. I lost my ex to depression a year ago.

I always encouraged her to try a visit to an endocrinologist because I kept suspecting that it could be something with her thyroid glands or maybe PCOS. She never got to.

i dont live a normal life very often. sometimes i get energy and try to catch up. sometimes someone gets mad at me for being so behind and out of fear i do things. but mostly i am the same. i just sleep or escape to fiction. anythign i get done is extremely last minute or late past when i was meant to do it.
No one had caught me slipping so far but I am able to feel my brain deteriorating from how much I've dissociated. Hope we can all get through this and find better coping methods.
 
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Lamentice

Lamentice

Schizoid
Mar 27, 2023
206
Genuine question: how do you guys live normal lives? Like working, studying for college, paying bills, stuff like that??

I'm stuck in a vicious cycle of using fiction to escape reality. It's gotten so bad that the world could be FALLING APART around me and all I can do is spend the entire day consuming media.

My daily life became:
something goes wrong in real life → i spend days escaping into fiction → repeat because avoiding it only makes the problem worse.
I have to. I mean, I either work or am homeless. No family to fall back on, no intimate friendships. There is literally no choice unless I want the worst things to happen to me. I guess I could rack up a bunch of debt, but my credit cards would max out after like 6 months and then what?
 
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