How can I get better?

[DepressedAngel]

Ugh I've been getting worse again. All I think about it killing myself, I feel I deserve it. I'm so scared of myself. Everything adds up and is too much....I saw my psychiatrist today and almost got admitted to a hospital for my depression :( so sad that life has brought me to this, but I don't want to ctb. How can I get better?
(Sorry maybe this shouldn't be on the suicide part, i just feel so suicidal, it seems fitting)

 

[MysticPerception]

You can start getting better by realizing you don't deserve to kill yourself. You deserve to live just as much as anyone else. There's no reason to beat yourself down and tell yourself that you deserve to die. Wanting to die and deserving to die are two completely different things. You can also try talking it out with someone. Unloading your issues one on one with someone else that isn't a specialist can be cathartic. Sorry I can't give any better advice than that and sorry if I came off as preachy I just want you know you're better than you think you are.

 

[Right2Die73]

I am sorry you are going through this. I am experiencing the same thing. I don't know how to "get better". I just seem to be getting worse and worse all the time.
It's nearly taking up all my time thinking about it too. I've tried the psych route for many years and tried many different medications, therapy etc. Nothing worked for me but everyone is different. All I can say is please know there are many wonderful people on this site that can help you or at least empathize with you.

 

[Roro90]

You don't deserves to die , no one deserves to die but sometimes life could be so harsh for many reasons and some people choose to take their life away
if you want to get better , I recommend you look for a good medicine that suit your case and continue with it talk to your doctor about it and start all over
with your life try to solve your personal problems and be more honest with people around you and don't be ashamed of yourself you are trying your best

 

[DepressedAngel]

You don't deserves to die , no one deserves to die but sometimes life could be so harsh for many reasons and some people choose to take their life away
if you want to get better , I recommend you look for a good medicine that suit your case and continue with it talk to your doctor about it and start all over
with your life try to solve your personal problems and be more honest with people around you and don't be ashamed of yourself you are trying your best

I'm on medicine right now that it helping, just not enough. And I'm scared to be honest with people around me because every time I get close to being involuntarily admitted to the hospital again. :(

 

[Roro90]

I'm on medicine right now that it helping, just not enough. And I'm scared to be honest with people around me because every time I get close to being involuntarily admitted to the hospital again. :(

give your medicine a time and I'm sure people around you are like this because they care
if your scared of being honest just pretend that you are okay , try to engage in some converstions and activities with family and friends and go out more
go and talk to someone and invite them to go out , watch new movies , eat delicious food , buy new clothes .. try to do sport regularly
don't set in your room and isolate yourself try your best to get out of your thoughts and it will be okay you deserve to live and be happy just like anyone else