How are you going to spend your last moments?

[whyidon'tknow]

For the hours/minutes leading up to you taking your life, aside from planning and preparations, what are you going to do?

My plan? I will pray to whoever that they take care of my family and friends, put on my favorite song Shadow Waltz- Harry Warren, and spend one last moment think back to the memories that made me happy in life.

 

[jake3d]

If alone: thinking of all the people i helped along the way, writing a retarded funny note as the real one is already prepared. If with a partner: holding them (if they are ok with that).

 

[whyidon'tknow]

If alone: thinking of all the people i helped along the way, writing a retarded funny note as the real one is already prepared. If with a partner: holding them (if they are ok with that).

I agree, humour can be good sometimes. My friends know I am a big joker, never one to ever be too serious. I wrote on one of my notes for some friends "Will be with shrek in the big swamp in the sky" Cuz i'm a loser haha

 

[kolski]

Just be alone. Just me and my thoughts for the last hours after everything was ready to ctb.

 

[jake3d]

I agree, humour can be good sometimes.

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Does anyone get the reference?

 

[whyidon'tknow]

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Does anyone get the reference?

Not a fan of shrek eh? XD

 

[jake3d]

^^ I saw the movies long ago but don't remember much.

 

[Empty Smile]

Drunk

 

[whyidon'tknow]

Drunk

Getting the liquid courage as we speak.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

I will probably spend my last minutes on this site describing my experience with SN until I feel like passing out. I want to be helpful for people who actually deserve it for once.

 

[Slenderman]

I think I'd read in bed a few hours with my stuffed animals next to me, and I'd have my last meal (probably fries or some shit nothing special) then top myself.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

I think I'd read in bed a few hours with my stuffed animals next to me, and I'd have my last meal (probably fries or some shit nothing special) then top myself.

had wendy's twice today. Treat yo self

 

[Partial-Elf]

I will probably spend my last minutes on this site describing my experience with SN until I feel like passing out. I want to be helpful for people who actually deserve it for once.

Be careful about passing out with the forum open, we've gotten a lot of negative attention following an instance of this exact thing

 

[HappyEnding]

I'll spend it alone and sleepy since I have to do it early in the morning when no one is home.

 

[Severen]

I will probably spend my last minutes on this site describing my experience with SN until I feel like passing out. I want to be helpful for people who actually deserve it for once.

Yeah but then people will find a tablet or smart phone or PC next to your corpse with this website on the screen...

 

[Faraway1990]

I'm going to spend my last few hours getting my method 100% right little practice on the way and when it's ready I'm going to come on here say my goodbyes and thank you, send some goodbye messages to people that helped me out over the years (who don't know where I live so no interruptions) check to make sure all my delayed messages are in order etc delete all data from my phone making sure theres no history of this site etc then listen to my favourite music relax and then night night. But the day I go I'm going to eat well and get good alcohol (I'm not drinking this until I'm at the point all I need to do is pull)

 

[whyidon'tknow]

I'm going to spend my last few hours getting my method 100% right little practice on the way and when it's ready I'm going to come on here say my goodbyes and thank you, send some goodbye messages to people that helped me out over the years (who don't know where I live so no interruptions) check to make sure all my delayed messages are in order etc delete all data from my phone making sure theres no history of this site etc then listen to my favourite music relax and then night night. But the day I go I'm going to eat well and get good alcohol (I'm not drinking this until I'm at the point all I need to do is pull)

how do you send delayed messages

 

[Faraway1990]

how do you send delayed messages

There are email apps with this option for both email and text. Good rule is 12 hours delay incase something goes wrong maybe set a alarm on yor phone for 10 hours or so I don't know you're chosen method.. and likelihood of survival.

 

[andy69]

Call my ex-partner. Apologize for everything. Watch night Mother.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

Call my ex-partner. Apologize for everything. Watch night Mother.

I just finished reading "night mother" What a fitting story.

 

[Faraway1990]

Call my ex-partner. Apologize for everything. Watch night Mother.

My ex partner knows me better than anyone when I phone her to say sorry and how much she's meant to me she'll catch on what's going on so it's the last thing I'm going to do before I CTB I've written her a big email explaining my decision and reassuring her I didn't suffer in my CTB. I really fucked up in this life big time revolving her and my life I really tried I can't see things getting better without a long period of me being homeless and what not again. I'm just not willing to go there again just to survive. I've had enough of this clown world.

 

[Final Escape]

My last day probably won't be a good day. I'm not really looking forward to killing myself. Im sure I'll be tearful, filled with sadness, fear, and shame. It will be scary after u drink the stuff waiting to pass out. I'm ready though. I'm so beat up and damaged by life.

 

[jake3d]

Yeah but then people will find a tablet or smart phone or PC next to your corpse with this website on the screen...

Not with me. Browser on private, battery's gonna die, open websites go poof.

 

[Quinlor]

Probably will be a normal day for me, pretending for everyone that i am fine "ok" and etc. This won't be my first attempt so I know the sensation, but this time I will try SN. The sensation is: ok this is my last meal, my last shower, last time I going to see and talk to my father and so on... The sensation it's like if you are completing or finishing something important. Wierd
and I know that all of this is fuck crazy, right...

 

[whyidon'tknow]

Probably will be a normal day for me, pretending for everyone that i am fine "ok" and etc. This won't be my first attempt so I know the sensation, but this time I will try SN. The sensation is: ok this is my last meal, my last shower, last time I going to see and talk with my father and so on... The sensation it's like if you are completing or finishing something important. Wierd
and I know that all of this is fuck crazy, right...

That is how I feel. I feel calm and prepared for the most part. I try and keep the survival instinct to the back of my mind

 

[myrtaryniel]

Probably high and scared af. Listening to some music, or watching something from my childhood.

 

[Tortured_empath]

Enjoy a last cigarette, hopefully the sunset is nice, listen to a Nick Cave song. Very cliché, but it works for me.

 

[Imgonnahangmyself]

Getting drunk listening to my 50s playlist

 

[marcusuk63]

probably twitching as my last death breath escapes my body but if i can be bothered and it`s looking likely i wont and my CTB will be an instant " oh fuck it and just do it there and then if not my "accident plan" which is beginning to look like too much hassle , is vast approaching the end of phase one , i have got rid of most possessions , decorated what needed decorating and doing odd little imperfections just finished preparing the bathroom for painting and everything is done ( i am perfectionist when i do work for others ) , so phase two sell house and buy a camper van and travel until my money runs out then on a nice sunset have a large BBQ last meal and a few beers (not drank for 16 years ) then as the chill set ins in bring the embers into the van with all vents shut and listen to some music , what a tragic accident but i know i wont do any of that and just one day very soon .... made me a bit sad when i saw this under the paper so i resigned it , and no i don't care if you can see my name , not like you are going to stalk me and murder me (i wish) , ring the samaritans or the police are going to arrest me again for being on here lol

 

[Oblivion Lover]

Yeah but then people will find a tablet or smart phone or PC next to your corpse with this website on the screen...

I will try to be careful and google something else before passing out. I doubt people will actually look at my online history. They're not that smart. Plus, they don't know how to read english.