darkhorse256
Student
- Mar 10, 2020
- 112
Hi all,
I was going to consider jumping as my method but everytime I get too close to the ledge, I don't jump and talk myself out of it. I'll be thinking of things like "wow, I'd be selfish for doing this" and I won't actually do it. I know that I get left in my room for about 12 hours every night so if I were to ingest something lethal, I'd be able to get away with it for minimally 12 hours. I can't find SN as it is illegal in my country (which is the stupidest thing I've heard of, but it's banned as apparently, it can be used in explosives or something). I can't use hanging because I can't have anything near my neck due to PTSD. I was going to drown myself in the sea but I at least want the one person I love to have closure after I die (aka finding the body). So, I've got a few chemicals/substances in mind but I was wondering which would be most lethal.
1) Chloroquine fish tank cleaner. I know I can find this in my country and I read reports that chloroquine can cause death. I read something about the dosage required for death being pretty low but I'm not sure how effective it is.
2) Antifreeze. I heard it doesn't taste that bad and it's possible to overdose on it. But it seems like it mostly causes kidney failure (which can be reversed) instead of actual death.
3) Bleach. I know this method is painful as hell, but it's effective. My primary concern would be the foul smell coming from bleach and my family realizing that.
I'm not exactly sure if there's anything more lethal than these. I know that mixing bleach and ammonia can cause toxic gas but again, I don't want that gas seeping out of my room and my parents finding out/saving me.
I was going to consider jumping as my method but everytime I get too close to the ledge, I don't jump and talk myself out of it. I'll be thinking of things like "wow, I'd be selfish for doing this" and I won't actually do it. I know that I get left in my room for about 12 hours every night so if I were to ingest something lethal, I'd be able to get away with it for minimally 12 hours. I can't find SN as it is illegal in my country (which is the stupidest thing I've heard of, but it's banned as apparently, it can be used in explosives or something). I can't use hanging because I can't have anything near my neck due to PTSD. I was going to drown myself in the sea but I at least want the one person I love to have closure after I die (aka finding the body). So, I've got a few chemicals/substances in mind but I was wondering which would be most lethal.
1) Chloroquine fish tank cleaner. I know I can find this in my country and I read reports that chloroquine can cause death. I read something about the dosage required for death being pretty low but I'm not sure how effective it is.
2) Antifreeze. I heard it doesn't taste that bad and it's possible to overdose on it. But it seems like it mostly causes kidney failure (which can be reversed) instead of actual death.
3) Bleach. I know this method is painful as hell, but it's effective. My primary concern would be the foul smell coming from bleach and my family realizing that.
I'm not exactly sure if there's anything more lethal than these. I know that mixing bleach and ammonia can cause toxic gas but again, I don't want that gas seeping out of my room and my parents finding out/saving me.