SadGirl
Specialist
- Mar 24, 2019
- 335
I think I want to try ctb, but maybe not really, just to go to the hospital. Any tips?
justpeachy
I’m haunted by the bottle & death on my breath.
- Sep 6, 2020
- 297
Ummm so you are asking to basically seek attention? Just go to the hospital. They will take you if you tell them you are feeling like hurting yourself and have a plan. Why bother trying to basically fake CTB ... that's why people don't get taken seriously as it is in the mental health field.
The only tip you are going to get here is to go walk in a ED or hospital and tell them you are wanting to harm yourself. If you really aren't then why do you want to go? Attention? If so, seek therapy.
The only tip you are going to get here is to go walk in a ED or hospital and tell them you are wanting to harm yourself. If you really aren't then why do you want to go? Attention? If so, seek therapy.
What do you mean? You don't wanna end up in a hospital?
I'll tell you my experience:
Last August, I tried to partially hang myself and failed. What happened? Well, I ended up in a hospital for a month. I even got covid there. It was hell and after that, the hell continued because I was forced to live with my parents again. Now, after about 6 months, I'm finally free.
My suggestion would be to avoid hospitals no matter what, especially for ctb reasons.
I'll tell you my experience:
Last August, I tried to partially hang myself and failed. What happened? Well, I ended up in a hospital for a month. I even got covid there. It was hell and after that, the hell continued because I was forced to live with my parents again. Now, after about 6 months, I'm finally free.
My suggestion would be to avoid hospitals no matter what, especially for ctb reasons.
justpeachy
I’m haunted by the bottle & death on my breath.
- Sep 6, 2020
- 297
I assumed they meant they want to go by how they worded it but not sure 100%. We will have to see what they say.
Ender
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- Dec 29, 2020
- 269
It depends on how willing you are do whichever one you choose. If you want to ctb, then try to. if you want to go to the hospital then you can. I kind of had a similar experience, I didn't want my family to abandon me, I thought I had no choice but to ctb, but I failed and surprisingly they got me a escort. If you are old enough and on your own, then by all means, seek help. I get it, you are probably in a situation where are confuddled on what to do.
Although be aware that hospitals don't keep you for long. So it might not be a long lasting solution. It hasn't been for me. It's all up to you. May peace seek you.
Although be aware that hospitals don't keep you for long. So it might not be a long lasting solution. It hasn't been for me. It's all up to you. May peace seek you.
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SadGirl
Specialist
- Mar 24, 2019
- 335
I have severe depression, anxiety, I have been taking anti-depressants since I was 17 years old. I really have these problems, it wouldn't be good to call attention, but I don't know what I want in my life.
justpeachy
I’m haunted by the bottle & death on my breath.
- Sep 6, 2020
- 297
If you think you want to go to the hospital you definitely don't need to hurt yourself to go. If you are unsure and open to the hospital, please go. You may find that it's really helpful for you. Not everyone is the same. Some people have had bad experiences but they aren't you, and don't have your life experiences and your issues. I urge you to go get some help if that's what you think you may want. Also going to a hospital on a voluntary basis is very very very different than being sectioned and going to an involuntary unit. I would always opt to go voluntarily if you have the choice and you will get sectioned anyways bc then at least you have some say in things.
People aren't taken seriously because of gatekeeping, paternalism, and institutional ideas of "sanity" and "recovery" that leave no room for our own self-identified needs, in fact.
SadGirl I am glad you're looking to get help. COVID is an added risk in crowded settings right now, in addition to the usual coercive staff behaviors. But you know your needs best.
And it is perfectly healthy to need, and seek out, attention. It's a shame that not everyone handles that respectfully. You deserve practitioners who do.
Fragile
Broken
- Jul 7, 2019
- 1,496
You could probably just voluntarily commit yourself to a mental health institution, there's no need to fake an attempt and it will have worse consequences for you on the long run, it's better to not harm yourself for many reasons, including the fact that whatever chance you have at recovery will be way harder with the aftermath of a fake attempt.
I did this almost two years ago, went to a hospital and told them that I was on crisis, they took me in for a few days and then sent me to a mental health hospital, I didn't find the answers that I was looking for, but if your problems are mostly mental then I'm sure that you'll have a much better chance of getting help this way, if that's what you really feel like you need.
I did this almost two years ago, went to a hospital and told them that I was on crisis, they took me in for a few days and then sent me to a mental health hospital, I didn't find the answers that I was looking for, but if your problems are mostly mental then I'm sure that you'll have a much better chance of getting help this way, if that's what you really feel like you need.
I never been to mental hospital, but I don't think it's a good idea. You are young. If you still have ability. To change the environment to avoid those people caused you the problem. Possible you will find the happiness again from other places and people.
I would suggest you do some research on the forum with the search, and see if you feel a hospital stay would benefit your not. If you feel it would you can voluntarily admit yourself rather then get it forced on you. It shows desire to recover, and will make it likely go smoother for you. You don't need to harm yourself or attempt suicide in order to get help. As others have said you can just walk in and say you plan to ctb, and that way you won't have history of attempts on your record too. Think it over carefully before you make any choices.
The absolute worst thing you can do is go to a hospital. If you are in US or any other countries with expensive healthcare you will get a massive bill, and even if you are in cheap healthcare country you will waste their time and possibly get yourself committed. If you want to find drugs to get yourself mellowed out you should go to a therapist and mention you have extreme symptoms but do not mention suicidal intent. But be warned these big pharma pills could cause lasting mental damage that is worse, even the drug companies themselves admit this possibility
justpeachy
I’m haunted by the bottle & death on my breath.
- Sep 6, 2020
- 297
This isn't fair to say to someone that is on the fence and might want to seek help. I thought we were a pro choice forum? Telling her that she would waste their time? Really?
Nymph
he/him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 2,565
If you are unsure about ctb then don't ctb. It's permanent and you won't be able to take it back. Go to a hospital if that's another option that's on your mind.
Hospital is not going to help . It's going to get the OP stuck with a massive bill if in the US and committed just about everywhere. If she wants legit help / meds needs to go to therapy practice
Nymph
he/him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 2,565
They're probably speaking from their own experience but making it sound like everyone will have the same experience. Not all hospitals are bad and some wards can help you sort your thoughts and stuff
justpeachy
I’m haunted by the bottle & death on my breath.
- Sep 6, 2020
- 297
Depends entirely on her insurance in the US. I live in the US and went to the hospital 3 times in a year and every visit was covered. It's way too vague to say that no matter what she will have a massive bill just because she lives in the US. We have no idea what insurance she has so there's no way to know that. I agree therapy is a great start but if she feels like she's going to try to CTB but doesn't want to then that's her choice and probably a good one to go to a hospital to be monitored. Many people do have bad experiences with hospitalization especially involuntary but many ppl including myself have felt that voluntary hospitalization did help to some degree at that time.
Nymph
he/him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 2,565
If you have any hope to get better then try to seek some therapy and maybe meds can help you too. Honestly if you're feeling overwhelmed you could check into some ward with good reviews and be there for a while until you feel like you won't cause harm to yourself out of impulsiveness. But wards can be scary I guess. Therapy is probably the best
justpeachy
I’m haunted by the bottle & death on my breath.
- Sep 6, 2020
- 297
And that's fine, but they literally told her she would be wasting their time...I just think that's really kind of messed up when someone is clearly saying they are on the fence and don't want to CTB and want to go to a hospital.
SuicidallyCurious you don't know what will happen in her case nor what will be good or bad for her, none of us are mind-readers or psychics.
Insurance often will cover a hospital stay. What I'd be concerned about is signing one's self in voluntarily but still not being allowed to leave when you want - it happens. Accessing therapies and medications as an outpatient, without going to the hospital, can be hard sometimes and take a long time. So do whatever you need to get through to someone. Seeking attention isn't a bad thing.
Insurance often will cover a hospital stay. What I'd be concerned about is signing one's self in voluntarily but still not being allowed to leave when you want - it happens. Accessing therapies and medications as an outpatient, without going to the hospital, can be hard sometimes and take a long time. So do whatever you need to get through to someone. Seeking attention isn't a bad thing.
SS is anonymous forum, but also violated what we called normal social behaviors. Post or reply a message, I think it's just a way we release our emotions. We knew your stories and replied you our opinions. We are still all strangers. Of course, we are not mind-readers or Psychics. To keep quiet is the best policy if you really think so. I am not came here to rescue someone, just wished everyone who joined the forum in the end has good luck. I think we treated people been in prison and mental hospital different. I never been mental hospital because I don't want to lose my freedom.
Pookie
Somebody you used to know.
- Oct 18, 2020
- 1,051
Which is the easiest decision to make? Suicide or hospital? If you still have hope you can benefit from a stay in the hospital. The pure fact that you're asking this question in the first place means you haven't 100% made your mind up to ctb yet.
Who knows, you can get the help you need and feel better about your life if you get therapy, but the only way to know is to give it a chance. Suicide is such a very hard and horrible decision to make. At least by getting help you'll be giving yourself a second chance. The option to ctb will still be there if life becomes unbearable. I hope you get a new lease on life and wish you all the best.
Who knows, you can get the help you need and feel better about your life if you get therapy, but the only way to know is to give it a chance. Suicide is such a very hard and horrible decision to make. At least by getting help you'll be giving yourself a second chance. The option to ctb will still be there if life becomes unbearable. I hope you get a new lease on life and wish you all the best.
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Mentalmick
IMHOTEP!!!
- Nov 30, 2020
- 2,050
