Yes, I fear existing, it terrifies me how one can suffer so unbearably yet not die, it disturbs me how there is literally no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they exist. To me it's just so hellish how a human can potentially exist for so long, I fear being trapped in this existence for decades longer just to die slowly and painfully from old age.
Existing truly is just pointless suffering and I wish I never existed more than anything, to exist is the most hopeless abomination, existence truly is nothing more than an unnecessary harm that serves no purpose but to torment existing beings. It's such extreme unacceptable cruelty how there isn't the option to just easily die in peace as I only find comfort in death, only non-existence is ideal to me as it's the permanent absence of all suffering and harm.