Honestly, how much do you cry?

[Rebirth]

It's happening multiple times a day lately and I live alone with my cat. Depression, trauma, heartbreak and disbelief all rolled into one. My existence is miserable.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Yes, I cry a lot.

Whenever people say they can't cry anymore because they're feeling depressed, grief, numb and/or emotionally exhausted, I wonder if I'm ever going to hit the point I can't cry anymore too. I don't think I am. I can cry anytime, any day, anywhere.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

mostly when im alone........ao all of the time, not when been flicking

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I don't cry. Well, I haven't recently. Well, actually I did last month at my friend's funeral. But apart from that I've been quite... Quiet, recently. I haven't been expressing myself particularly loudly.

 

[Miss clefable]

All the time

 

[Ben]

I don't cry. Well, I haven't recently. Well, actually I did last month at my friend's funeral. But apart from that I've been quite... Quiet, recently. I haven't been expressing myself particularly loudly.

Yes, I've slipped so far inside myself I barely show anything on the outside anymore.

 

[Mugara]

Sometimes when I look at my cat or think about ex, on inner level I want to lie down and burst in tears but I can't. Tears and sadness (not suffering) are pure human emotions which I'd rather cut because it provokes self-pity.
But I do smile all the time knowing what is about to happen.

 

[Clover]

Rarely

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I don't, I'm very apathetic.

 

[Synthroz]

At this point I feel like a doll , just a empty vessel carrying out my days waiting for the inevitable.

 

[throwaway123]

I want to cry but I can't. I've become numb.

 

[InsidiousDormouse]

I haven't cried in a very long time. If I let myself show any emotions at all people start accusing me of taking drugs again. Fair play if I had actually done so, but I haven't and I am tired of being accused of doing things I have not done. Last time I dared get upset, I'd been up all night in mind blowing pain from my untreated endometriosis pain (that's what I think it is anyway) and dared to shed a tear to someone who was supposed to be 'supporting' me and the first thing they asked was 'what have you taken'. I guess my resolve cracked, I should have known better.

Incidents like that must have built up with me, in the past year I have become very reserved and stoic, I just shoulder hardship and carry it with all the weight already on my back, if it is not as bad as benzo withdrawal, then it does not even register with me, the world could end and I would not cry over it, I'd probably enjoy some aspects of it, no more people accusing me of shit I had not done and so fucking what if I did it. Crying over it has never changed anything for me. Yesterday marked the anniversary of my stepdad's death, never cried over that either. I sometimes feel bad for not crying over something, but what will it change?.

 

[Abel]

Very often, and very easily, due to my inability to regulate my emotions (bpd). I suppose the fact that I never confide in others (or even interact with them to begin with) contributes to that as well, since it causes my emotions to build up to the point where the slightest trigger sets them off. I despise being so quick to cry, it makes me look pathetic and weak to others.

...I mean, I AM pathetic and weak, but you know what I mean. I wish I could maintain a stoic demeanor.

 

[Trashcan]

Honestly, not that often. I am so used to feeling this way it takes a lot to make me cry.

 

[KCN]

Not anymore, I just think that if I had to cry for any major or minor inconvenience happening to me or this world, I'd become the Niagara Falls

 

[windingdown]

I teared up talking to my mom three days ago and it was a surprise. I never cry anymore... like someone else said, I mainly feel apathetic.

 

[MissLisa]

I try to hide how I'm feeling but yes I do cry a lot.

 

[Tiburcio]

I do it when I feel alone, when nobody is near to me... Every night I feel the urge of crying, and more in this moment.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

It depends … sometimes when I haven't slept much and I have to go to work.
Other times just random. :(

 

[NOISYMIND]

Been crying my eyes out. But I'm becoming number each day.

 

[AnnihilatedAnna]

I cry a lot everyday, and to be honest I'm getting sick of it. I guess crying can be good sometimes but most of the time it isn't.

 

[Ashpac]

I wish I could cry but im too dead inside.
Someone I know gets injections to feel emotion.

 

[RacilyDank]

Not enough. I get a release from it, like a calmness after the storm, but honestly unless I really try to make myself I can't.

When I first suffered with depression I would cry all the time for no reason, I felt pathetic. If I was with company as soon as they left it would flood out

 

[EternalSanction]

I'm rarely having breakdowns in which I cry. In general I like to supress my emotions/don't show them and I got kinda good at this over the years.

 

[Ktmnny]

I dont really cry anymore either. Its like I cant be bothered to or something

 

[nuclearsnake]

Not all that much, really. I'm too dead inside.

Unless something that fucks me up happens (getting yelled at, being criticised, having people talk to me in a stern voice, being told off - stupid shit like that) because then I lose my goddamn mind and go to bed for days and cry there. And that I can do for hours.

 

[Hunter]

Don't be ashamed, I cry daily too. It's horrible when I get into thinking about all my problems and issues and how I am basically trapped. I just wish I felt better after crying.

 

[Brokenman505]

I dont. Nothing even worth crying over at this point. Just numb.

 

[Midnight]

None ... Been like this for almost 2 decades. Only time i cried in that time is when my father passed and everyone was crying arround his hospitalbed as he made his last breath. Had i been alone would have been unable to cry. Don't know why it's like this. I might look like a heartless bastard at certain times but looks can be deceiving.

 

[FadedMemory]

I'm so numb these days that I can't even cry anymore.