Homeless and just got raped. I have to have sex to survive. Thinking about starving myself to death

[Tired_girl555]

I got raped last night by some guy I met online. I feel like I'm so tired of the guys I have sex with to have a meal and sometimes a warm place to sleep. I'm not sexually attracted to the majority of men I'm with and I'm tired of always having to do things I don't want to do just so I don't die. I tried starving myself to death once and I'm prepared to do it again. Hopefully with success this time. What are your tips on this method of suicide? Are there any other ways to go that I can do while I'm outside with no money that will kill my relatively quickly and painlessly? I'm down for any suggestions or advice. No I don't want to go to a shelter. Churches are actually pretty judgemental when you ask for food. And no I'm not able to get a job because all of my credentials either got stolen or were left in different places. Please no typical homeless wannabe supportive bullshit. Right now I'm in a tough spot and I've tried and the system doesn't work so I'd like to remain outside for now.

 

[MeSauce]

Rope? idk man, i feel bad for you, that is a tough situation to be in

 

[Tired_girl555]

It's OK. Just ready for it to end

 

[lotuss_biscoff]

I would suggest rope or falling, both are a lot faster than starving yourself. I'm sorry you're going through this, hoping the best for you.

 

[Romanticize]

yes, starving is incredibly long and painful. You will get huge physical pain, and also mental pain, true hallucinations, you will likely lose your mind. Not a cool way to go :(

People say rope, but it costs 5-10$ I guess, and for that money you can source SN. Depends on country you're in, in some it's easier than others (in Poland I bought 1 kilogram(!) of SN for $5 lol).
However if you can't source SN, I guess hanging, but be sure to make it full suspension, and take thin rope/cord, but not elastic one --> this way you maximize chances to cut flow in your arteries, and pass out in 15sec and die painlessly. (painless hangings are about 40-60%). However, if you screw up just a bit, the other half of hangings, are incredibly painful suffocations, so hanging is not preferred.

Depending on money/availability: Inert gas > Opioids+benzos > SN+benzos > Gun to the head. Rest of the methods are not very reliable or very painful. Best of these is hanging I guess, closely followed by jumping (at least 40-50m, head or torso first, onto concrete). Do not try methods like drowning, immolation, cutting or starvation.

 

[Kittywuzhere.]

Holy shit im so sorry that sounds awful but yeah starving or dehydrating r def not the ways to go that would just put u in more pain also don't try over the counter drugs bc it will most likely either take a long time and make ur last moments miserable or not work all together, I hope you can find sum peace after all the tragedy you've indured

 

[wham311]

What a travesty that people can't escape this fucking place