virginiawoolf86
Specialist
- Jul 4, 2020
- 317
So, as some of you may know, I suffer from Cotard's Delusion. It is a waking hell and medication hasn't helped. I have a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow and was thinking of asking my doctor for ECT treatment as that's a possible treatment for my illness. My worry is that it won't work and and will damage my brain further. Also, having to potentially go inpatient again is something I really don't want to do. What if they keep me there and I'm stuck without a way out of this miserable existence? Am I stupid for holding out hope for treatment? I just can't keep living this way anymore and I really just want another chance at my life. I'm nearing my CTB date and am torn on what to do.
That being said, and I hope I'm not breaking any rules here, if this doesn't work, would anyone be willing to be with me in my last moments? Either through chat or what have you. I'm scared and so alone and I feel like I need someone there to be with me in some way. I don't know if it's okay to ask this, and if it is, please forgive me. I'll take down this part of this post.
No one knows how I suffer.
I'm so lost right now.
Thank you for reading.
That being said, and I hope I'm not breaking any rules here, if this doesn't work, would anyone be willing to be with me in my last moments? Either through chat or what have you. I'm scared and so alone and I feel like I need someone there to be with me in some way. I don't know if it's okay to ask this, and if it is, please forgive me. I'll take down this part of this post.
No one knows how I suffer.
I'm so lost right now.
Thank you for reading.