Venting Holding back my family

[SomePersonIGuess]

This is just a vent post. You don't have to bother reading this, I just felt like writing it somewhere.

Me, my sister and my dad are on a trip to a ski resort right now. We're staying a week, and it's currently day two. I really don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything right now, especially not skiing. For some reason though, my dad is unwilling to leave me alone in our hotel, and is saying that if I don't come along he and my sister can't go skiing, or even go for a walk. It's soooo frustrating. If I weren't around they could probably have their fun as they please. I probably will give in and go with them soon, I just really don't want to. I've asked why he can't just leave me alone and go do what he and my sister want to do without me, but his answer is always "just because". I feel like I never want to go on holidays again, as this seems to happen every time, but I know that if I just decide not to they won't go either, and I would feel horrible about making them miss out on a trip they wanted to go on. At this point the only good solution I can think of is to ctb so I'm out of their way and they can do what they want to do without me holding them back. Though, a few months ago I promised a friend I wouldn't ctb, and while I don't exactly plan on keeping that promise forever, I don't want to break it so soon, especially not when they are dealing with their own struggles and my death wouldn't help their situation. I feel like I'm dragging everyone around me down, and I know ctbing isn't really an option for me right now, as tempting as our hotel balcony may be. I know I should just join them, suck it up and do what they want to do. It's just hard.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I suppose I get why they're doing it but, I also understand why you don't want to. I'm guessing they can see there's something wrong and they maybe assume you staying indoors alone will only make things worse. Whether going out with them will make it better isn't necessarily correct either but, I guess it's like a forced intervention. I hope it isn't as bad as you are anticipating.

 

[SomePersonIGuess]

I suppose I get why they're doing it but, I also understand why you don't want to. I'm guessing they can see there's something wrong and they maybe assume you staying indoors alone will only make things worse. Whether going out with them will make it better isn't necessarily correct either but, I guess it's like a forced intervention. I hope it isn't as bad as you are anticipating.

Thanks for your insight. You're probably right, and I know I'm making a bigger deal of things than is frankly necessary.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Thanks for your insight. You're probably right, and I know I'm making a bigger deal of things than is frankly necessary.

I expect many of us are guilty of that- me included. But I mean, it can feel like a big thing to have to be around people when you just want to be alone. I suspect they're doing it because they care though. I hope it's been bearable.

 

[SomePersonIGuess]

I expect many of us are guilty of that- me included. But I mean, it can feel like a big thing to have to be around people when you just want to be alone. I suspect they're doing it because they care though. I hope it's been bearable.

Thank you for your kind words. Yeah, I know it's just because they care, it just gets kind of overwhelming I guess. But in the end I generally manage.