Discussion Highly antisocial and joy from being alone

[Nymph]

Does anyone thrive when they're alone? Just doing their things and hobbies? I have depression and anxiety and I really enjoy being alone and not have to interact with people. I hate talking and expressing myself through words and I also don't like listening to people talk unless it's a YouTube video or a movie and stuff. I can't listen to multiple voices/things at the same time so when there's some annoying noice from the outside and then my mother starts talking to me I can't concentrate and don't understand anything she's saying. It's making my life very difficult and so I just prefer to stay alone. I don't even like to meet up with friends because it takes too much energy, I wish I could stay in my room forever and just play games and take care of my bunny

 

[Done at Fifty]

Yip. I've always felt best when alone. Life can easily overpower me and make me feel anxious.

I love how when I'm alone I feel I am truly myself - if that makes sense. Not a daughter, niece, aunt, sister, parent, title, or even a name. Alone, I'm no longer a character so to speak in this horrible setting called life. The game of life is shut off. The world goes quiet. If there's a such thing as a spirit, it's presence, for me, can only be felt when life is still.

 

[Nymph]

Yip. I've always felt best when alone. Life can easily overpower me and make me feel anxious.

I love how when I'm alone I feel I am truly myself - if that makes sense. Not a daughter, niece, aunt, sister, parent, title, or even a name. Alone, I'm no longer a character so to speak in this horrible setting called life. The game of life is shut off. The world goes quiet. If there's a such thing as a spirit, it's presence, for me, can only be felt when life is still.

Yes I totally understand you. I also feel myself when I'm alone, when I go out or something it feels like I'm putting on a mask but when I'm alone I can be my true self and not conceal anything. I'm glad someone related to me because I thought my case was (too)unique

 

[Crazy Squirrel]

For me, socializing has always been like trying to pick my way through a mine field; the situation is always rather precarious and often ends up blowing up in my face, so to speak. So, instead of bothering with people, I listen to a lot of music -- most of it is in foreign languages that I don't speak, so I don't feel I have to pay attention to the lyrics at all. I also post a little bit here and there, or watch a slice-of-life anime, and that seems to be good enough for me.

 

[Nymph]

For me, socializing has always been like trying to pick my way through a mine field; the situation is always rather precarious and often ends up blowing up in my face, so to speak. So, instead of bothering with people, I listen to a lot of music -- most of it is in foreign languages that I don't speak, so I don't feel I have to pay attention to the lyrics at all. I also post a little bit here and there, or watch a slice-of-life anime, and that seems to be good enough for me.

Yeah I can relate, I used to listen to a lot of music and I was a total anime super fan lol. Today I'd replace music and anime with games and YouTube videos haha I also post here pretty often. Sometimes I have this writting awakening and have a bunch of thought I want to write out and post

 

[TheSkyIsBlue]

I have social anxiety, so I feel anxious around people. I prefer to be alone. I still need a human contact, so I just chat with someone on the Internet, it's way easier.

 

[stationarymillennial]

I wish I was like you, OP. I do be feeling lonely

I mean I make electronic music and code things, but I think I am finally over being on the computer.

 

[Nymph]

I have social anxiety, so I feel anxious around people. I prefer to be alone. I still need a human contact, so I just chat with someone on the Internet, it's way easier.

Ah interesting, I'm not even in need of chatting And I would b okay with 0 human contact. I like posting here though and seeing other ppls perspectives

I wish I was like you, OP. I do be feeling lonely

Yeah, I do think it's kind of a strong side of mine but I still get forced to go outside and to talk to people.

 

[Final Escape]

Yea I spend most of my time alone. Social anxiety and negative feelings about myself.

 

[Crazy Squirrel]

Yeah I can relate, I used to listen to a lot of music and I was a total anime super fan lol. Today I'd replace music and anime with games and YouTube videos

I don't know, it's always been music for me, I don't find games or YouTube very interesting. Ha ha, and I'm definitely not an 'anime super fan', I only watch it every once in a blue moon because it's just pretty rare for me to want to sit and watch anything.

 

[W3akCr3atur3]

Yes and yes. I hate being around people and it almost physically hurts me.
I always enjoyed being 1 to 1 with some friends.
But not anymore. Since I am sure to ctb, I want to be alone and not make anybody worry about me.

 

[TAW122]

I was like that for a period of time in my life, this was during my undergraduate college years, about a decade ago. I would just eat, sleep, play video games, study, and then rinse repeat the cycle over and over. I only cared about games, my own hobbies, and just getting decent grades, but didn't pay much attention to other stuff outside of my world. I would say that diminished in the recent years though, more social and went out more as well as worked in the previous year (until my job ended and living situation changed).

As of now, due to the pandemic, I'm sorta pushed back into a similar lifestyle as I have been in college, but the difference is that I occasionally try to get outside more just to get more exercise.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Does anyone thrive when they're alone? Just doing their things and hobbies? I have depression and anxiety and I really enjoy being alone and not have to interact with people. I hate talking and expressing myself through words and I also don't like listening to people talk unless it's a YouTube video or a movie and stuff. I can't listen to multiple voices/things at the same time so when there's some annoying noice from the outside and then my mother starts talking to me I can't concentrate and don't understand anything she's saying. It's making my life very difficult and so I just prefer to stay alone. I don't even like to meet up with friends because it takes too much energy, I wish I could stay in my room forever and just play games and take care of my bunny

Yeah i like being alone. Only on this website do people say interesting things or talk about reality. The only other places people say interesting things are in the great books and some websites but those are not interactive .

 

[OnlyBuilt4Linxs]

Most of you like being alone because you have friends and aren't actually completely alone. When you're like me and 100% alone with NOBODY that shit is fucking miserable.

 

[littlevanillaballoon]

When I was a child, I refused to make friends in school. I went to the farthest corner of the playground, faced the chain-link fence, and sat and played pretend until recess was over. The other kids thought I was completely insane. A dozen psychiatrists (and later, all sorts of psych meds), were never able to change me.

Sometimes people just do better on their own. You're not alone.

 

[alexit]

Does anyone thrive when they're alone? Just doing their things and hobbies? I have depression and anxiety and I really enjoy being alone and not have to interact with people. I hate talking and expressing myself through words and I also don't like listening to people talk unless it's a YouTube video or a movie and stuff. I can't listen to multiple voices/things at the same time so when there's some annoying noice from the outside and then my mother starts talking to me I can't concentrate and don't understand anything she's saying. It's making my life very difficult and so I just prefer to stay alone. I don't even like to meet up with friends because it takes too much energy, I wish I could stay in my room forever and just play games and take care of my bunny

yes, i mostly want to ctb because I dont want to pay bills or work for anything money buys. if it could just be me I'd be fine. Give me a deserted island with food and safety and I'm good.

 

[snowman626]

i dont care about having or not having male freinds, but i do want some female companionship and intimacy which is unattainable unless i pay for it.

im like an alien from another dimension who cannot understand how to socialize like regular human creatures, once people get to know me they think im weird or creepy. after awhile you just turn really bitter and give up.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

Everything in moderation, apart from being alone.

 

[Bauhaus]

Most of you like being alone because you have friends and aren't actually completely alone. When you're like me and 100% alone with NOBODY that shit is fucking miserable.

I agree. Once you're totally alone, everything seems meaningless, there's no drive anymore to do anything.
And I think age also plays a major role: the older you get, the less interests you have and the less motivated you are to start with learning something new. Time passes away faster when you're older and It's like you're more aware of your own mortality, hence everything you do seems pointless.
When I was 30 and had just lost my job becos of redundancy, I played games and watched TV series all day long. Now I'm 48, don't have friends anymore and I feel less and less motivated to do anything. And I know once my parents are gone ctb will be inevitable.

 

[Emily123]

i am not antisocial for no reason . There are terrible people in the society who harm others with no reason . wild animals don't harm others when there is no reason but stupid human does

 

[PJFord]

I'm actually quite outgoing at parties and socially, and my career virtually requires me to be extroverted. However, I need to balance this with alone time. I live alone and when I was working (I resigned a month ago in preparation for CTB) it was not uncommon for me to come home on Friday and stay home recharging and decompressing until Monday morning, only going out to hit the gym or maybe groceries. This sheltering in place since March has actually been ok for me.

You may be an Empath. I am. Being around people can be draining because Empaths absorb energy from people, especially negative and anxious energy. Until we learn deflecting techniques, we absorb and assume all this varied and confusing energy we absorb is ours, making us feel sad and bad. If you're not familiar with Empaths and want to learn more, I can recommend the books by Dr Judith Orloff. I got to meet her at one of her lectures. She's awesome and very enlightening to read her books.