Hi! How are you doing?

[xXiloveyouXx]

I'm sitting in a hotel room that smells like cigarettes rn, halfway to my spot to ctb. Went to a concert on a whim and it was awesome, I never jump around and dance but I thought fuck it, what does it matter if I won't be around after tomorrow?
How's everyone doing tonight

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

I'm sitting in a hotel room that smells like cigarettes rn, halfway to my spot to ctb. Went to a concert on a whim and it was awesome, I never jump around and danced but I thought fuck it, what does it matter if I won't be around after tomorrow?
How's everyone doing tonight

Frankly, I'm frustrated. Trying to find a certain 3-letter website that keeps getting mentioned on here, but I'm starting to wonder if I'm just imagining it all and it isn't even real.

 

[DeoxygenDaydream]

What concert did you see?

Another loud night at work, just kinda daydreaming about nonsense, people watching, and thinking about the necktie I'm gonna use sooner or later for ctb.

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

What concert did you see?

Another loud night at work, just kinda daydreaming about nonsense, people watching, and thinking about the necktie I'm gonna use sooner or later for ctb.

Is a necktie strong enough?

It was a bunch of underground bands local to the city I happen to be staying in. One of them had a singer who sprayed fake blood in people's faces and fed the audience gummy worms. I look like I had a bloody nose and I'm sure it was funny to the people on the street passing me by afterwards.

 

[TheCavernousDeep.]

I'm sitting in a hotel room that smells like cigarettes rn, halfway to my spot to ctb. Went to a concert on a whim and it was awesome, I never jump around and dance but I thought fuck it, what does it matter if I won't be around after tomorrow?
How's everyone doing tonight

Yk, I feel like most of my pain came from thinking about the future.
I think maybe there is a happy life of the form that when days are bad I say "at some point I'll be happy again" and then when days are good I say "I could die before things get bad again."

I'm glad you liked your party. Are you planning on going through with it tn? I don't have opinions either way I'm just asking.

 

[one million years]

I'm ok tonight. Listening to femtanyl in my room and trying not to think about the future.
I wish you the best.

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

Yk, I feel like most of my pain came from thinking about the future.
I think maybe there is a happy life of the form that when days are bad I say "at some point I'll be happy again" and then when days are good I say "I could die before things get bad again."

I'm glad you liked your party. Are you planning on going through with it tn? I don't have opinions either way I'm just asking.

Idk if I have the energy to make the rest of the drive right now. I'm going to finish it tomorrow. Or I guess I'll decide tomorrow morning if I'm going to finish it, maybe the me tomorrow morning will wuss out and I'll drive home.

I'm ok tonight. Listening to femtanyl in my room and trying not to think about the future.
I wish you the best.

Femtanyl goes dummy

 

[itbelikethat]

Frankly, I'm frustrated. Trying to find a certain 3-letter website that keeps getting mentioned on here, but I'm starting to wonder if I'm just imagining it all and it isn't even real.

It was real, but i reckon it got taken down

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

It was real, but i reckon it got taken down

Nooooo!

 

[Proceed]

Just bored. No alcohol unfortunately.

 

[darksouls]

I had nightmares for half the night and could not sleep the rest of the night

 

[DeoxygenDaydream]

Is a necktie strong enough?

It was a bunch of underground bands local to the city I happen to be staying in. One of them had a singer who sprayed fake blood in people's faces and fed the audience gummy worms. I look like I had a bloody nose and I'm sure it was funny to the people on the street passing me by afterwards.

According to some threads here, it's strong and rather comfortable. I've got this one that I bought for a Harry DuBois - Disco Elysium outfit that I'd like to use just for the bit. I'd trust it to hold tbh.

Ooh that's sick af, sounds like it was a really fun show :)

 

[FuneralCry]

For me it's always so torturous to suffer in this terrible, dreadful existence and I'd just never wish for the abomination of existence that just causes all this harm and suffering, to suffer in this existence is just always the most terrible mistake to me that should never had been imposed, for me non-existence is just all that's positive.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the dreadful suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it's just so horrific to me how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible agony of old age, I always suffer so much from existing in this horrific world where there is all this endless suffering with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, to me denying peaceful death is such a horrific crime.

 

[nitrogenous]

At home, feeling super empty but also anxious. I feel like a failure and I just wish my life could just end quickly. I'm so tired of life…

 

[FadingSnowFake]

It was a bunch of underground bands local to the city I happen to be staying in. One of them had a singer who sprayed fake blood in people's faces and fed the audience gummy worms. I look like I had a bloody nose and I'm sure it was funny to the people on the street passing me by afterwards.

This sounds .. interesting. Glad you got to let go a bit. Guess you must be sleeping now, I hope you get a good rest. All the best for tomorrow, whatever you decide. I'm a bit chilled now, spent the day applying for jobs. Sending hugs for when you need them.

 

[fightclub17]

Nooooo!

it's still up

 

[TheCavernousDeep.]

are you still alive?

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

are you still alive?

Yes. 4 hours to get there and 5 to get home. I have to decide right now.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Terrible. I missed my bus months ago. I've been telling myself tomorrow for like 6 months. Depression has eaten everything. I stay at home, stinking, rarely showering or even eating.

The problem is my method is hanging and it's way too painful and scary. I keep going back to it in my mind and looking forward to it brings me comfort. But when it's go time I fail. It's probably been a month since I got up on a chair for FSH. I still couldn't make the choice.

I watched a video of an old woman drinking a euthanasia potion this morning. What a privilege.

 

[pharsyde]

getting high in my room!

 

[TheCavernousDeep.]

Yes. 4 hours to get there and 5 to get home. I have to decide right now.

I see. Personally I do like a nice road trip! Like I'll put on music and stuff and just think. Is the drive scenic?
Also why do you want to die?

 

[Liebestod]

Doing fuck all thinking about how I ended up this way.

 

[yellowbunny]

I'm sitting in a hotel room that smells like cigarettes rn, halfway to my spot to ctb. Went to a concert on a whim and it was awesome, I never jump around and dance but I thought fuck it, what does it matter if I won't be around after tomorrow?
How's everyone doing tonight

Glad you had fun at the concert :)