hey i'm officially suicidal again

[sulli]

i was doing so well omg it happened so fast. like a 24 hour period and i'm fully relapsed lololol
something always happens to remind me my brain's broken and no one will ever love me for long and i'll never find happiness in this lifetime. i just wish i had a good way to CTB i'd be outta here so fast

 

[Stormy Raine]

I'm sorry you're feeling like this, maybe try to take some sleep aid so you can escape this life for a few hours. I think if we all had a guaranteed method we would all leave too. I hate every second of being here, hopefully we will be out soon!

 

[sulli]

I'm sorry you're feeling like this, maybe try to take some sleep aid so you can escape this life for a few hours. I think if we all had a guaranteed method we would all leave too. I hate every second of being here, hopefully we will be out soon!

i want to but i have to get up early and cancel an appointment or i'll be in trouble i might take one after that

 

[NoFutureAnymore]

I'm sorry you're feeling like this, maybe try to take some sleep aid so you can escape this life for a few hours. I think if we all had a guaranteed method we would all leave too. I hate every second of being here, hopefully we will be out soon!

It sounds like inert gas with a SCUBA/SCBA setup is a promising method in terms of succes.

 

[_Alfarooq_]

i was doing so well omg it happened so fast. like a 24 hour period and i'm fully relapsed lololol
something always happens to remind me my brain's broken and no one will ever love me for long and i'll never find happiness in this lifetime. i just wish i had a good way to CTB i'd be outta here so fast

If only I had a good way too, I need to find out how to get my hands on sodium nitrite in the UK

 

[Stormy Raine]

If only I had a good way too, I need to find out how to get my hands on sodium nitrite in the UK

I think 99% of people on here would CTB if we knew a sure and guaranteed method! The possibility of failing again or becoming physically handicapped because of my method is the only reason I'm still here. Everyday is 1 less day we have to be here!!

 

[Sweet Tart]

Everyday is 1 less day we have to be here!!

I love this. It's a brilliant alternative to "look on the bright side" type of thinking

I'm sorry things aren't going well, @sulli Relapses of all kinds suck. You must have been going thru a lot for it to have happened. Sending hugs

 

[peelingbananas]

i was doing so well omg it happened so fast. like a 24 hour period and i'm fully relapsed lololol
something always happens to remind me my brain's broken and no one will ever love me for long and i'll never find happiness in this lifetime. i just wish i had a good way to CTB i'd be outta here so fast

i'm sorry you feel like this, this sounds like torture. might not be ideal for you since i'm a complete stranger, but if you ever need to talk, you can shoot me a dm! :)

 

[Extra Expression]

Ur just like me fr
On the serious note, I could be really happy - but one small little trigger can easily make me spiral and go suicidal.
I understand what you're going through.

 

[feder]

i was doing so well omg it happened so fast. like a 24 hour period and i'm fully relapsed lololol
something always happens to remind me my brain's broken and no one will ever love me for long and i'll never find happiness in this lifetime. i just wish i had a good way to CTB i'd be outta here so fast

Relapses suck, but at least you now know that it is possible to feel better. Not all hope is lost yet. I hope you find the strength to fight or if you so choose to leave this world, both are a valid decision and will be respected.

If I remember correctly you had a partner and got better because of it, did something happen? (sorry if I'm wrong or you don't want to talk about it)
Wishing you the best!

 

[jonghyun]

thinking of u fondly and hope it gets better 4 u soon <3

 

[sulli]

Relapses suck, but at least you now know that it is possible to feel better. Not all hope is lost yet. I hope you find the strength to fight or if you so choose to leave this world, both are a valid decision and will be respected.

If I remember correctly you had a partner and got better because of it, did something happen? (sorry if I'm wrong or you don't want to talk about it)
Wishing you the best!

you may be mistaking me for someone else haha, i haven't had a partner in years bc i have no interest in it at the moment (not that it stops people from trying every day). but i appreciate you nonetheless, thank you for your kind words

thinking of u fondly and hope it gets better 4 u soon <3

sasu user jonghyun

 

[unoriginalnick]

How old are you it dose not seem that you speak particularly eloquently.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

How old are you it dose not seem that you speak particularly eloquently.

Not very friendly...

But lollollol because of relapse? I see where you're coming from...

@sulli how old are you?

 

[unoriginalnick]

Not very friendly...

But lollollol because of relapse? I see where you're coming from...

@sulli how old are you?

Indeed it seems a bit too jovial

 

[Larysa]

Indeed it seems a bit too jovial

Have you not hear of black humour, use of irony… No?

 

[AshClouds]

I remember slowly inching back towards being suicidal after years of not being one. Depression took a turn for the worst and outlook started to seem bleaker. I started casually looking up suicide methods and at first. At that time I didn't see myself as being suicidal again. Then eventually I started to think to myself that maybe this is the only way out of all my problems, and that if I don't do it, things will progressively get worse and this pain will only become larger and will cut deeper.

Sucks that your situation puts you in that predicament. I'm really sorry to hear that.