Venting Here's to having made it to the end of 2022....

[WorthlessTrash]

Yippee fucking do. What reward do I even get from this? Absolutely nothing. Back in the summer, I did make a promise to my mother that I'd make it to 2023, but I never intended to do so. I wanted to CTB in October but didn't. Wanted to CTB in November but didn't due to holidays, and the same went for December..... I hope I can manifest myself CTBing this upcoming year.

Making it through 2023 gave me nothing but increased envy of attractive cis women, gained weight due to depression and overeating (400 LBS) and just overall my interest in my hobbies have completely died. The ONLY positive is I managed to get my hands on sn. Now if only I had the balls to chug it.

May 2023 be my year to CTB....

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

I feel this. The bit about your hobbies no longer holding interest, that shit hits hard. I can't say anything to make things any better for you, but know that you're not alone.

 

[Silent.Tears]

I have hit another new low, Cheers! Problems on top of problems on top of problems.....& no energy or will to deal with them.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I have hit another new low, Cheers! Problems on top of problems on top of problems.....& no energy or will to deal with them.

Same pretty much

My dysphoria festered and now I lost interest in hobbies AND I gained a lot of weight. More problems. It's just never ending!

 

[hopelessgirl]

Feeling this

 

[leeloosnow]

eat shit 2022.
still love y'all tho

 

[FuneralCry]

I also hate the fact how another year has passed and yet I'm still trapped here. It certainly is dreadful the thought of being here for another year as there really is nothing to be gained by continuing to exist, instead there are only more ways in which to suffer. At least you have the SN by your side, I really do envy those who are gone from this world as they are free from having to endure endless days in this horrific world.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I let myself get fat too. It makes me disgusted even though it was the natural outcome of the lifestyle I adopted.

 

[Sadgirldaisy]

I'm so upset that I'm here another year. My failure seems to compound on itself the longer I live.

 

[Wannagonow]

Not happy about 2023 Arriving soon. Did not want to be here another year...and did not plan on being here. That's a problem. A big problem.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I'm hoping that I'll take my sn very soon. Maybe within the next few days. Way too many reasons to do so.

- i cannot and will not accept the fact that i will never be cis female
- too many attractive cis women with pretty privilages that i can never have
- i am constantly in a body that i find repulsive (male anatomy)
- my hobbies no longer interest me (as a result of my depression due to dysphoria)
- relationships no longer interest me (as a result of my depression due to dysphoria)
- i am too financially dependent on my mom
- too envious of the opposite sex
- I am 400+ lbs and gained a lot of weight as a result of my depression (thanks to dysphoria). I have no reason to care about my body as a result of my dysphoria.

Too many reasons to CTB, and none to try to keep fighting for a little longer.

The answer seems clear. CTBing is the answer.

 

[patanjali]

A few more hours to go yet!

 

[TimetoGo!]

I'm hoping that I'll take my sn very soon. Maybe within the next few days. Way too many reasons to do so.

- i cannot and will not accept the fact that i will never be cis female
- too many attractive cis women with pretty privilages that i can never have
- i am constantly in a body that i find repulsive (male anatomy)
- my hobbies no longer interest me (as a result of my depression due to dysphoria)
- relationships no longer interest me (as a result of my depression due to dysphoria)
- i am too financially dependent on my mom
- too envious of the opposite sex
- I am 400+ lbs and gained a lot of weight as a result of my depression (thanks to dysphoria). I have no reason to care about my body as a result of my dysphoria.

Too many reasons to CTB, and none to try to keep fighting for a little longer.

The answer seems clear. CTBing is the answer.

what is a cis female?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

what is a cis female?

Someone born female is content with their assigned sex.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm still here also.

 

[NHLTradeRumor]

I'm still here too, against my will unfortunately. I've lost interest in my hobbies (just video games), and I've been distancing myself from my friends and family. I can't support myself as I can't keep a job to save my life (literally), and I would probably be living with my parents forever. All of this is exacerbated by the fact I was born the wrong sex, and nothing I nor anyone else does will ever truly fix that. Just knowing that I'll never be a cis woman, and forever be seen as different, even by allies, it hurts. Gender Dysphoria is probably what's gonna get me to finally CTB, not even my BPD. Sex reassignment surgery didn't help too much, because it's not a cis woman's vagina. In retrospect, I see why the trans suicide rate is so high.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I'm still here too, against my will unfortunately. I've lost interest in my hobbies (just video games), and I've been distancing myself from my friends and family. I can't support myself as I can't keep a job to save my life (literally), and I would probably be living with my parents forever. All of this is exacerbated by the fact I was born the wrong sex, and nothing I nor anyone else does will ever truly fix that. Just knowing that I'll never be a cis woman, and forever be seen as different, even by allies, it hurts. Gender Dysphoria is probably what's gonna get me to finally CTB, not even my BPD. Sex reassignment surgery didn't help too much, because it's not a cis woman's vagina. In retrospect, I see why the trans suicide rate is so high.

I am sorry. A lot of people do not realize the GRS only can go so far. I am always envious of cis women with their natural feminity, sexuality and bodies. I myself cannot cope like this any longer.

 

[NHLTradeRumor]

I am sorry. A lot of people do not realize the GRS only can go so far. I am always envious of cis women with their natural feminity, sexuality and bodies. I myself cannot cope like this any longer.

I always get jealous of cis women too, because I know I'll never be one.. I don't know how so many trans people just... live

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I always get jealous of cis women too, because I know I'll never be one.. I don't know how so many trans people just... live

Because their standards of beauty are a lot lower than ours, or they see being trans as the lesser of the two evils between that and dying.

I met a trans woman in the sasu chat months ago that said "being cis is overrated". I don't really understand, tbh.