Here we go again

[Flying Away]

Countdown begins again. Long weekend so shouldnt be found. Once again feel so calm. After three failed attempts this I thought I might be nervous but I'm not. This has to work. Cannot stand another day but as usual have day and time picked out.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that it must be a relief to feel calm about everything. I understand that this life is unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I wish you relief from suffering and I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[Gabriel21]

Countdown begins again. Long weekend so shouldnt be found. Once again feel so calm. After three failed attempts this I thought I might be nervous but I'm not. This has to work. Cannot stand another day but as usual have day and time picked out.

Which method will you try

 

[Flying Away]

Thats a private matter but it will be peaceful.

Which method will you try

I can imagine that it must be a relief to feel calm about everything. I understand that this life is unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I wish you relief from suffering and I hope that you find what you are looking for.

Funny enough I feel drained and slightly numb. This time it will work, it has too. I had a small grain of hope but that seems to be gone. Just need to fade away. Dont think I'll be missed. Drs always say about those I'll leave behind but i think they'll be happier without me. There arent many anyway. One change of heart has been like a knife twisting inside of me. Treatment doesnt work, I just nod and agree. Each day feels worse than the last. It has to work this time.