Another round of depression. I don't know how much more I can take. I try to do everything right but it keeps coming back. It's getting more frequent. I go from meh to depressed. They say: what you do and what you think affects how you feel. Doing the right things doesn't keep me from spiraling. I try to control what I think but I just obsess and obsess. I think about CTB many times a day. I feel closer to acquiring my method. I wonder if I have it on hand will it relieve the pressure? Or would I just be more tempted?
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LoiteringClouds
Tempus fugit
- Feb 7, 2023
- 3,789
I'm so sorry for your depression. It's a pure mental torture.
In my case, I got my method and had been content with it for three years. But then my life took a nosedive and I couldn't resist the urge to use my method impulsively. I ingested my poisonous substance several times was eventually admitted to a psych ward. Fortunately the self-poisoning didn't left me disabled.
I hope your depression lifts as soon as possible...
In my case, I got my method and had been content with it for three years. But then my life took a nosedive and I couldn't resist the urge to use my method impulsively. I ingested my poisonous substance several times was eventually admitted to a psych ward. Fortunately the self-poisoning didn't left me disabled.
I hope your depression lifts as soon as possible...
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,391
I believe that having the option of a method can be comforting for many people as they know that they have a way out and they no longer feel so trapped here. I consider those who have SN and especially N right now to be very fortunate, it's just so incredibly unfair how N is no longer an option.
But it does sound very tiring what you have to endure, I think that when it comes to acquiring a method only you know what is best after all. It's just so incredibly unfair how existing can cause people to suffer so much.
But it does sound very tiring what you have to endure, I think that when it comes to acquiring a method only you know what is best after all. It's just so incredibly unfair how existing can cause people to suffer so much.
This
I know too well. I can only sympathize. Have you tried mood stabilizers? If so, did they help?
