Helping my partner.

[Emily1021]

Does anyone have any tips on making my suicide easy on my partner? For short context: I attempted (a non-method, unaware it was at the time) last November. He stayed with me through in-patient. He's so patient, and gentle, and loving. But, since I was a little girl I've been broken and no amount of therapy or medication has helped. I'm ready to go and I have the SN to accomplish it. I have a suicide note I've been writing to him, and one to my work of all things lol. They've been amazing (I work in behavioral health ironically.) and supportive of me for the past year+. He is knows very well I'm depressed and have suicidal thoughts on occasion, but he doesn't know I'm actively planning and ready to go now. Just want any tips that could help soften the blow I guess? Worrying about how he will react/be when I'm gone is my only thing keeping me going at the moment.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Does anyone have any tips on making my suicide easy on my partner? For short context: I attempted (a non-method, unaware it was at the time) last November. He stayed with me through in-patient. He's so patient, and gentle, and loving. But, since I was a little girl I've been broken and no amount of therapy or medication has helped. I'm ready to go and I have the SN to accomplish it. I have a suicide note I've been writing to him, and one to my work of all things lol. They've been amazing (I work in behavioral health ironically.) and supportive of me for the past year+. He is knows very well I'm depressed and have suicidal thoughts on occasion, but he doesn't know I'm actively planning and ready to go now. Just want any tips that could help soften the blow I guess? Worrying about how he will react/be when I'm gone is my only thing keeping me going at the moment.

That's a beautiful thought.
I have a question to you sweetheart, can your love for him be the anchor for you to live for him because he really loves you?
My suggestion is, if there's a way to live for him. By all means look for it.. not everyone has the luck to get a loving partner like him

 

[Emily1021]

That's a beautiful thought.
I have a question to you sweetheart, can your love for him be the anchor for you to live for him because he really loves you?

Sadly, I don't think so. Life is so painful despite everything going well. I have a good job that I love and is supportive. I have a loving partner. I'm still so depressed and tortured in my brain. I'm so tired of trying to live anymore.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I'm from India, and India, there's a concept, to sacrifice for the one we love.
Can you sacrifice your intention to ctb for the one who loves you so much

Sadly, I don't think so. Life is so painful despite everything going well. I have a good job that I love and is supportive. I have a loving partner. I'm still so depressed and tortured in my brain. I'm so tired of trying to live anymore.

I can understand dear sister
I can understand your pain and if you are in that situation it speaks a lot about what you are going through
If that's the case, talk to him, that you wanna go. Keep nudging him until he agrees. And use the SN when you think he has loosened up

 

[Emily1021]

I'm from India, and India, there's a concept, to sacrifice for the one we love.
Can you sacrifice your intention to ctb for the one who loves you so much

I can understand dear sister
I can understand your pain and if you are in that situation it speaks a lot about what you are going through
If that's the case, talk to him, that you wanna go. Keep nudging him until he agrees. And use the SN when you think he has loosened up

I think if he gets wind of me going he'll 302 (involuntarily) put me into in-patient. Which I can't blame him for.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I think if he gets wind of me going he'll 302 (involuntarily) put me into in-patient. Which I can't blame him for.

My goodness
In that case,all you can do is be selfish.
If he can't understand your pain, you should not understand his pain
Go for CTB
Write a loving letter so he feels comforted
Use the SN you've got.. don't think of anything else after writing that letter to him
Don't wait. And just strictly implement it
God bless you dear sister.
I pray to god that you can finally find your peace

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

Sadly, I don't think so. Life is so painful despite everything going well. I have a good job that I love and is supportive. I have a loving partner. I'm still so depressed and tortured in my brain. I'm so tired of trying to live anymore.

I have also suffered serious depression all my adult life despite having a good life. Is there any specific reason for your depression and what kind of thoughts does your brain feed you? I just wanted to compare notes on how someone else experiences depression for no good reason.