followingfate
Member
- Dec 26, 2020
- 39
everything just hurts so much.. trying to find anything to stop the hurt but nothing works..
I want to die so badly... I have my sn but, I don't know,, I'm afraid of leaving my pets behind bc no one will care for them.
my partner got a gun even though I told them how uncomfortable it makes me. if I get a night alone I'll try anything to get my hands on it, where ever he hid it. maybe it'll teach him to listen to me for once.
I'm tired of being abused. if I get upset about anything he threatens to hurt me, to lock me out of the house, to force me to move somewhere else. he blames me for being uncomfortable around the gun. he blames me for having suicidal thoughts. he blames me for having emotions. it hurts so much.
all I want is to be dead. I'm praying for a heart attack or for the courage to do it myself.
please help.
I want to die so badly... I have my sn but, I don't know,, I'm afraid of leaving my pets behind bc no one will care for them.
my partner got a gun even though I told them how uncomfortable it makes me. if I get a night alone I'll try anything to get my hands on it, where ever he hid it. maybe it'll teach him to listen to me for once.
I'm tired of being abused. if I get upset about anything he threatens to hurt me, to lock me out of the house, to force me to move somewhere else. he blames me for being uncomfortable around the gun. he blames me for having suicidal thoughts. he blames me for having emotions. it hurts so much.
all I want is to be dead. I'm praying for a heart attack or for the courage to do it myself.
please help.