My mom seems to have dementia. She says strange things, her ability to move is limited, and every day she seems to get worse. It really hurts me to see her like this. Honestly, I've never planned a life without my mom. I've planned to leave this world after she's gone—maybe with pills? Maybe by drowning in a pool. My life has always been sad—I've never been able to make someone fall in love with me, I never had good or many friends. We were born poor. My dad was an alcoholic and not a faithful man or a good husband. The only person I have is my brother. It would hurt me to leave him alone, but I don't know if life without my mom is even worth it.
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My mom seems to have dementia. She says strange things, her ability to move is limited, and every day she seems to get worse. It really hurts me to see her like this. Honestly, I've never planned a life without my mom. I've planned to leave this world after she's gone—maybe with pills? Maybe by drowning in a pool. My life has always been sad—I've never been able to make someone fall in love with me, I never had good or many friends. We were born poor. My dad was an alcoholic and not a faithful man or a good husband. The only person I have is my brother. It would hurt me to leave him alone, but I don't know if life without my mom is even worth it.
misty
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- May 31, 2025
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this is truly so sad and i am so sorry that you are going through this rn i cant even imagine the pain that you must be feeling :( are you able to have your mom be seen by a doctor? they may be able to prescribe painkillers or something that can help ease some of her stress a little
She has been seen by doctors, but there hasn't been much progress. This seems to be a degenerative disease — it's like a monster chasing someone you love.
EvisceratedJester
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- Oct 21, 2023
- 5,157
That's awful. I'm sorry you have to deal with that. My grandmother also suffers from dementia and it has been getting increasingly worse. She keeps on calling me by my father's and uncle's names by accident and tends to get confused very easily. I often find myself missing the woman I used to know. On the bright side, she seems to be happy for the most part and is taking it easy.
Have you looked into seeing if there are any services you might be eligible for to help with caring for her at the very least?
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My family helps me, but it's very painful to see her scream, say things that make no sense, and get lost in her own thoughts. She was always a good person with a noble heart. She didn't deserve this — that's what hurts me the most
so sorry to hear this, my heart breaks and prays for you and your mom. No words can ease this pain , dementia is the worst. I am at risk and dont have anyone thats one of the reasons i want to accelerate my CTBSimilar threads
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