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I want to be where people areN'T...
- Jan 23, 2023
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So my SN is on the way and I will be ordering the rest. I'm spending time reading old SN cbt threads and crying my soul out. I'm mourning for those who ctb-ed, for my wasted life, for the pain going unnoticed by everyone of import to me.
I need to get over a big problem: the fear. Of suffocation. Will I really feel like suffocating? Of tachycardia. Will my heart explode? Of diarrhea. I am a very clean person and dread being found in a lake of poop. I die just thinking about it.
Can you help me get over these fears? Any way to mitigate the possibility of such terrible side effects? I must do this, I see no other way, but it feels like standing on top of a cliff looking down when the SI kicks in.
I need to get over a big problem: the fear. Of suffocation. Will I really feel like suffocating? Of tachycardia. Will my heart explode? Of diarrhea. I am a very clean person and dread being found in a lake of poop. I die just thinking about it.
Can you help me get over these fears? Any way to mitigate the possibility of such terrible side effects? I must do this, I see no other way, but it feels like standing on top of a cliff looking down when the SI kicks in.