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Trilly

Trilly

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Feb 9, 2026
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My name is John Sasu. I'm above 18 years old. My activity is in the Suicide Discussion forum of Sanctioned Suicide, where all the goodbye threads are, and I am not pro-death, I'm just pro-choice. I work as a bus driver for the Sancho Suerside company, and I log on every day by 8 PM at the latest. I don't self-harm, but I occasionally attempt. I'm offline by 11 PM, and make sure I post at least 10 threads a day, no matter what. After pouring a glass of sodium nitrite and doing about twenty minutes of fighting survival instinct before going to bed, I usually have no problems staying awake until morning. Just like a mental ward patient, I wake up with crippling fatigue, suicidal ideation and stress in the morning. I was told "I hope you find peace" and "Do you have SN source?" on my last vent. I'm trying to explain that I'm a person who wishes to die a very quiet death. I take care not to trouble myself with any recovery, like therapy or medication, that would cause me to think I might still have a will to live. That is how I deal with society, and I know that is what brings me unhappiness. Although, if I were to kill myself I wouldn't be stopped by anyone.
 
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thefarter

thefarter

i don’t smoke
Dec 10, 2025
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Hey is ur name actually John sasu that's kinda crazy.

also i think people would stop you if they knew you were trying to kill yourself.
 
SASU-KE

SASU-KE

My previous attempt ↑
Nov 26, 2025
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Hey is ur name actually John sasu that's kinda crazy.

also i think people would stop you if they knew you were trying to kill yourself.
I think he's just making a comedic post for all the lurkers who are bound this way due to the recent YouTube video.Not sure though.
 
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Unsure and Useless

Dreaming Endlessly, not Wanting to Wake Up
Feb 7, 2023
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Hello, John SaSu, it is I, Johnathan Tourist. I find your post quite fascinating, and I would like to impart some wisdom to you in this time of your life when you are incapable of thinking for yourself

Tell me, have you ever considered that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem? I'm sure there are people out there in your life who love you very much that don't want you to take your life like this. Things will get better, I'm sure of it, because the Bible said so

Speaking of the Bible, did you know it is a sin to take your own life? God made us all in His own image, so by taking your own life, you are spitting on the gift He granted you, a child made from His love for humanity. Please reconsider this path you are taking, for you do not truly understand what you are getting into

I know my compassionate words full of empathy are enough to sway you from the path of sin, and if you disagree, you're lying and purposefully being difficult

Wishing you well,
Johnathan Tourist
PhD in Preventing People from CTB
 

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