Well, I'm not sure if I can explain in detail the reason why I'm depressed and why I think of death as a solution. What I can say for the moment is that I suffer from a very serious and terrible mental psychiatric disorder. The problem is that this mental disease is not tolerate in society and I'm afraid to receive only negative replies and insults because normally people hate this mental disease. I'm really scared that people won't accept me with this mental condition. This why I wanted first maybe to ask a moderator or an administrator if it was safe to expose my mental disorder or not.
I'd like to offer two solutions.
First, you can do a site search with the name and/or initials of the disorder to see if it's discussed here and the types of responses people receive.
Second, to build up your post count so you can PM, there are a lot of game threads in Off Topic. Within a couple of hours of reaching the needed number of posts, after having been a member for 24 hours, you'll be able to PM. I think the minimum number of posts is five, it's not officially announced in the Rules and FAQ, but that seems to be the norm.
