Heartbreak is pure hell and I want to ctb so all the pain can stop forever

[FireFox]

I never used to understand on the news why people kill themselves over a partner or love interest who dumped them or rejected. Now I do because I can no longer cope anymore with this heartbreak I feel. I have tried so hard to move on throughout the months but the pain is still there, everyday. I want to die right now because its pure hell.

I don't understand how love is seen as this beautiful emotion and so romantised when really love is truly a destructive emotion that brings suffering. Unrequited love is a deep pain that cuts so deep and it doesn't stop.

I turned 26 in May. When I was 25 I feel so deeply love with this 55 year old male work colleague at a job I started last year. I loved how special he made me feel and he always running to help if I had a problem at work. We had fun times together. All my life guys ignored me and it felt so great to finally have a man notice me, care about me and always being there. I liked how he was different. I met him at time my life was getting better. I thought I was going to get want I wanted all these years to be loved.

The man turned out to be a two faced arsehole who was no longer interested in me after he got back together with his long term girlfriend who is in her 50s just like him and they have been on and off for 20 years. He even told me I was,"too young" for him and I should find a man "my own age". He said he "can't keep up with a 25 Yr old woman." Arsehole knew the entire time I felt about him, hid his complex relationship status and he discards me like me. He kept continuing to cause me soo much pain at work. It hurt so much when he called his on and off partner "his rock." I wanted to be his rock.

I feel like I am never going to find anyone nor be any man's special woman. I feel like I will never met another man to fun and exciting times with like I did with him. I really thought I found the one and I thought he liked me.

People tell me he is too old but I don't fucking care. All I wanted was him. My laxative abuse and diet pill abuse came back after all the pain he caused me.

I don't want to feel these feelings anymore. I want to die as there is no man for me. This pain is never going away.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

"better to have loved and lost than never loved at all" is the most bullshit saying. I'm also a few months into a breakup with a girl I love with my whole heart and it sent me into a pit of despair.

I don't have any words to lessen your pain, and I don't know if it gets better- it hasn't yet for me. if you want to reach out to talk to someone going through something similar, feel free to reach out in DMs.

if not, I wish you nothing but the best

 

[zipperstuck5171]

Yeah that better to love and lost is the dumbest thing I ever heard. They don't come back.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do feel for you. I've always gone for older guys. I had 3 bouts of limerance over guys that maybe lasted over 10 years in total. They were very painful times and I hate to say it but it literally took years to get over it. I can honestly say that I have gotten over it now pretty much. Not that I'd want to meet any of them again. But in terms of feelings for them- they have passed- thankfully. I just feel a whole lot of pitty for myself at the time. Plus- I try to promise myself I won't put myself through it again. Sadly, there's not much I can offer up as comfort though- other than the cliche that I think time does help- but- it's a long time to recover completely- in my experience.

 

[FormerlyFe(IV)]

I hope you can get it over soon. The longer the relationship, the longer it takes to heal. I took six months to be "95%" over a woman that I dated and lived with for three years. Another six months to be "99%" over her. Every never here and there I still remember how I miss them.

And it's just heartbreak. It helps to think about it logically a bit. Like, I broke up because they were a huge a ball of stress and realistically I wouldn't ever come back to her. But it still hurts.

Hugs,

 

[MrDarkness]

Honestly be glad, they had some interest in you, I'd yearn for that, I'm just ignored or looked at like some Kind of monster, I stop caring about love, hopefully you can find someone that treats you right

 

[FireFox]

"better to have loved and lost than never loved at all" is the most bullshit saying. I'm also a few months into a breakup with a girl I love with my whole heart and it sent me into a pit of despair.

I don't have any words to lessen your pain, and I don't know if it gets better- it hasn't yet for me. if you want to reach out to talk to someone going through something similar, feel free to reach out in DMs.

if not, I wish you nothing but the best

@AllFoxedOut Thanks for listening and being understanding. It really helps a lot. I really hope you get over this pain too.

I hate it when people in my life tell me "everything happens for a reason." on what I am experiencing right now. I wish these people can shut the fuck up. I hate that pharse because it's bullshit. Life and this world is too complicated for things to be narrowed down to a simple pharse everything happens for a reason.

No everything doesn't happen for a reason. My grandmother tells me that we relatives have God gave us for a reason. No our arsehole relatives we ended up with them because we were unlucky and lost the genetic lottery and ended up with these piece of shit relatives.

If people want to believe in bullshit then fine but dont expect me to be believe it. I fucking hate that pharse everything happens for a reason

Virtual hug

from

FireFox :)

Honestly be glad, they had some interest in you, I'd yearn for that, I'm just ignored or looked at like some Kind of monster, I stop caring about love, hopefully you can find someone that treats you right

@MrDarkness I hope you met someone too

 

[suicidalloser]

I never used to understand on the news why people kill themselves over a partner or love interest who dumped them or rejected.

Because it can fucking hurt like hell, koshinuke.

 

[jonghyun]

let me just say.. from someone who has experienced it a few times.. heartbreak is actually one of the few lucky emotions that does get better with time, especially as you yourself grow and reflect and you meet and talk to other people. Emotions like career anxiety or death anxiety tend to be more long-term but let me tell you heartbreak will feel better in 3-4 months and MAJORLY better in around a year's time. It sucks right now i know it but heartbreak gradually simmers down to an easily-forgettable dull ache rather than the stab wound that it feels like right now

 

[suicidalloser]

let me just say.. from someone who has experienced it a few times.. heartbreak is actually one of the few lucky emotions that does get better with time

You don't know everyone, shut the fuck up with that bullshit lie, pro-lifer.

 

[FireFox]

Because it can fucking hurt like hell, koshinuke.

@suicidalloser My own life has gotten better. I rescently got accepted into a prestigious university to study a masters course I have always wanted. I stsrt in September. I have tried so hard to improve my life

The pain is still there. I don't know if it will ever end.

 

[jonghyun]

You don't know everyone, shut the fuck up with that bullshit lie, pro-lifer.

YO WTF IM NOT A PRO LIFER LMFAO
Im saying this bc of my personal experience and trying to cheer up the OP in some way rather than be like 'yoooo true bro kill yaself' cos heartbreak is a stupid reason to kys over lmfaooo

 

[sulli]

let me just say.. from someone who has experienced it a few times.. heartbreak is actually one of the few lucky emotions that does get better with time, especially as you yourself grow and reflect and you meet and talk to other people. Emotions like career anxiety or death anxiety tend to be more long-term but let me tell you heartbreak will feel better in 3-4 months and MAJORLY better in around a year's time. It sucks right now i know it but heartbreak gradually simmers down to an easily-forgettable dull ache rather than the stab wound that it feels like right now

this has been my experience too

 

[suicidalloser]

YO WTF IM NOT A PRO LIFER LMFAO
Im saying this bc of my personal experience and trying to cheer up the OP in some way rather than be like 'yoooo true bro kill yaself' cos heartbreak is a stupid reason to kys over lmfaooo

Crack open a dictionary, it'll do wonders.

 

[FireFox]

let me just say.. from someone who has experienced it a few times.. heartbreak is actually one of the few lucky emotions that does get better with time, especially as you yourself grow and reflect and you meet and talk to other people. Emotions like career anxiety or death anxiety tend to be more long-term but let me tell you heartbreak will feel better in 3-4 months and MAJORLY better in around a year's time. It sucks right now i know it but heartbreak gradually simmers down to an easily-forgettable dull ache rather than the stab wound that it feels like right now

@jonghyun Thank you so much. My own life has gotten better. I rescently got accepted into a prestigious university to study a masters course I have always wanted. I stsrt in September. I have been spending more time outdoors but still I want to die.

I have tried so hard to improve my life since February when the arsehole rejected me .

 

[jonghyun]

@jonghyun Thank you so much. My own life has gotten better. I rescently got accepted into a prestigious university to study a masters course I have always wanted. I stsrt in September. I have been spending more time outdoors but still I want to die.

I have tried so hard to improve my life since February when the arsehole rejected me .

the masters course brings a new life change so see if it will make you feel any better. Its something to look forward to and maybe u will meet someone else. Im sorry about the pain of heartbreak i know it truly feels like the world is ending but it is temporary even though it doesnt feel like it :(

 

[suicidalloser]

@jonghyun Thank you so much. My own life has gotten better. I rescently got accepted into a prestigious university to study a masters course I have always wanted. I stsrt in September. I have been spending more time outdoors but still I want to die.

I have tried so hard to improve my life since February when the arsehole rejected me .

you're the same bitch invalidating the suffering of others. Die.

 

[FireFox]

you're the same bitch invalidating the suffering of others. Die.

There is no need to call me a bitch.

 

[suicidalloser]

There is no need to call me a bitch.

Someone's gotta.

 

[FireFox]

Someone's gotta.

Reported. That is a misogynistic slur

 

[jonghyun]

Reported. That is a misogynistic slur

Dont worry too much it seems like theyre deliberately trying to get themselves banned, calling you that is so out of pocket and uncalled for and unnecessarily mean...

 

[FormerlyFe(IV)]

heartbreak is a stupid reason to kys over lmfaooo

In the interest of others' feelings and getting back on track on the topic a little bit, I disagree. Depending on the relationship, a a breakup can be devastating to one's life.

Until very recently, despite getting over my three-year-and-so relationship, I still thought that I could never love the same way again. I thought no woman could ever compare.

I put my ex on a pedestal: she was SUPER smart, a nerd with really cool niche interests, tall, beautiful and sexy, caring, good sex, common interests, etc. If if it weren't for the problems that happened I swear I'd marry her.

And that's just one way of visualizing how contrasting and dire a breakup can feel. There are many other bad breakups that can happen that can destrroy someone mentally, emotionally, physically, financially. I don't think it's our place to say that losing hope in life because of a failed relationship is stupid.

 

[SleepyRobloxGrl]

You don't know everyone, shut the fuck up with that bullshit lie, pro-lifer.

Pressed about little shit again I see. Good job! You can't differentiate between pro life and encouragement!

 

[SoftWorries]

I had a friend in a very similar position as you including why they broke up and his relationship with someone else.

She suffered a lot when it ended but now she is with a really cool guy her age.

If you're feeling gaslit I'd suggest reading My Dark Vanessa. It's a fantastic book.