katara

katara

tired all the time
Mar 17, 2022
147
I always felt like I never belonged in this world. I feel bad every time I mess something up. I get bad anxiety for no reason very randomly. I don't know if I was born this way, I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just tired of being alone all the time.
The other day I was freaking out because I felt so sick in my head, I thought maybe the well water had bacteria in it or I got food poisoning from the food I ate. I knew it was just hormones because I was on my period. It doesn't matter though, I've always been like this. It's so sad to continue on like this. I feel terrible, I don't have ups and downs because I have no friends and nothing to ever look forward to. I'm just surviving.
I hate having to tell myself " it's no big deal don't freak out everything is ok".
I'll never have someone here to hold me and hug me when I'm in my darkest moments.
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
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Sounds like you have some degree of OCD and/or axiety disorder. Have you ever tried meds?
 

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