Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
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I can kinda understand why the annoying social workers always think i'm trans and waste my time with that kind of stuff thanks to my femboy looks, but this new psychiatrist and therapy i'm being forced to go to has reached new heights. They've given me a ''borderline personality disorder'' and virtually every single justifications ive got so far are , roughly translated : ''Look at what you're wearing, you're clearly histrionic and seeking attention !'' ''the jackets you wear are too theatrical and flashy, you must want to be the center of everyone's attention at all time !'' ''You're clearly way too demanding of people, look at how overly well groomed you are, surely you expect everyone to be like that too !'' Also a few hard to translate to english remarks about my hair, which kinda just sounded like the therapist being jealous and salty that i have nicer hair than her. Not related to the dumbest diagnostic ive ever received, but also got these amazing gems: ''No one will want to date you, your scars will scare any girl away'' ''You look scary and impossible to approach, no girl will want you''.

Back when i was a fat neckbeard i kept being bullied and told i needed to loose weight, dress better, take care of myself more or else no one would ever want to date me. After years and a metric ton of effort invested in doing those things, i get bullied... for being a slim stylish well groomed femboi. It's... well... why did I even fucking bother lol.

We'll bully you for liking victorian clothes, for free :) -The Canadian Healthcare system
Abbachio was the worse character. -The Canadian Healthcare system
 
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Disappointered

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Yeah the doctors and therapists and social workers of canada are definitely garbage from my experience as well. It's really appalling and reflects what a heap of BS this country is really about. It's one of the most passive aggressive societies that exists and the only thing its good at is branding itself as everything it's not. Very sorry to hear that you've been so mistreated.
 
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I feel like I'm trapped in the system. Everyone is making serious coin off me without the smallest of compensation coming to my family or I. I'd be dead or worse without it but it still leaves me feeling like it's an entrapment.
 
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what's the point of going to a psychiatrist just to make you worse?
 
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what's the point of going to a psychiatrist just to make you worse?

Meds...

He's my drug dealer now.

Sorry... I didn't mean it like that... just really frustrated.

I need those meds for my illness. I need someone to vent to about my illness. But I know the data they collect off me and the research conducted has been invaluable but uncompensated.
 
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what's the point of going to a psychiatrist just to make you worse?
I got sent to the asylum, had my guns seized, and seeing a psychiatrist is the only way i'll ever manage to get my stuff back.
 
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Weary Soul

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Soon I will be free
Nov 13, 2019
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The medical system has completely and utterly failed me. I have absolutely no respect for heath care at this point.

Personal to me, but I have been treated horrifically by "health care" workers and to add insult to injury, have been expected to pay for their cruelty.

Some may be lucky to get someone good, and I am happy for them. But it has not been the case for me.

My heart hurts for anyone who has gone through this - it is terrible.

<3
 
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You're clearly way too demanding of people, look at how overly well groomed you are, surely you expect everyone to be like that too !''

If it was the other way around and you did not care too much about your appearance they would say that you are a "raggedy-ass", have no self-respect or just call you a "bum". But because you do like to take care of how you look you are a "pretty boy" and an attention seeker. You just cannot please some people.

Not related to the dumbest diagnostic ive ever received, but also got these amazing gems: ''No one will want to date you, your scars will scare any girl away'' ''You look scary and impossible to approach, no girl will want you''.

If someone does not want to be around you or with you over something superficial - then that is not a girl that you really want to be with.
 
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Nov 2, 2020
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That's absolutely fucked, I'm so sorry. I can't believe they have treated you this way. Why does society make suicide seem shocking when suicidal people do not get the support they deserve.
 
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Nov 2, 2020
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I can kinda understand why the annoying social workers always think i'm trans and waste my time with that kind of stuff thanks to my femboy looks, but this new psychiatrist and therapy i'm being forced to go to has reached new heights. They've given me a ''borderline personality disorder'' and virtually every single justifications ive got so far are , roughly translated : ''Look at what you're wearing, you're clearly histrionic and seeking attention !'' ''the jackets you wear are too theatrical and flashy, you must want to be the center of everyone's attention at all time !'' ''You're clearly way too demanding of people, look at how overly well groomed you are, surely you expect everyone to be like that too !'' Also a few hard to translate to english remarks about my hair, which kinda just sounded like the therapist being jealous and salty that i have nicer hair than her. Not related to the dumbest diagnostic ive ever received, but also got these amazing gems: ''No one will want to date you, your scars will scare any girl away'' ''You look scary and impossible to approach, no girl will want you''.

Back when i was a fat neckbeard i kept being bullied and told i needed to loose weight, dress better, take care of myself more or else no one would ever want to date me. After years and a metric ton of effort invested in doing those things, i get bullied... for being a slim stylish well groomed femboi. It's... well... why did I even fucking bother lol.

We'll bully you for liking victorian clothes, for free :) -The Canadian Healthcare system
Abbachio was the worse character. -The Canadian Healthcare system
just learns us to look the way we want and comfortable with. but yeah this is so dumb I'm sorry you have to listen to that bullshit. like why do they even care about your looks? it's none of their business.
 
Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
656
At this point i'm almost convinced they're jealous that a guy is cuter than them and they're being asshats about it. Thankfully ive managed to get my semi decent social worker to go screech at the psychiatrist, hopefully they'll maybe at least stop bullying me a bit. Or even better they'd actually help me with the stuff ive been diagnosed that's an actual thing affecting my life, like the whole social phobia and depression thing, instead of wasting my time with moon logic diagnostics.
If they don't stop bullying me ive decided to just gradually up my level of extravagance to a point where i'll just show up in full victorian officer uniform, with an Astolfo wig, and do my best Monthy Python impersonation. Nobody expects the kawaiiquisition.
 
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Hope ur final midnight feels like the hug you need
Nov 8, 2020
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Fuck them! Hate that you have to deal with that. The Mental Health care system is trash beyond disbelief. It feels like just another place to abuse you and push you to cbt so we're out of their hair. I hate it. But also...you sound amazing.
 
NightmareTour

NightmareTour

Specialist
May 13, 2020
398
Gotta love all of those hoops you're supposed to jump through to get any kind of help.

Trying to get help? You're obviously not sick enough to need help. Not trying hard enough? You obviously don't need the help if you're not looking for it.

Look after yourself well? There's nothing wrong and you must be attention seeking. Don't look after yourself enough? You're just lazy and not trying.

I really want to know what you're meant to be like to fit into this tiny portion of people who are deemed worthy of help.


Also, it's starting to really piss me off how gender identity is used as a cop out by mental health professionals right now. If you're gender nonconforming and struggle with your mental health, you must be trans. And if you're trans and struggle with your mental health, it must be BECAUSE you're trans. Guess it's just the next easy thing for them to latch onto to get rid of patients.

I say wear the cosplay to every appointment, it's awesome.
 
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Konjac

Konjac

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Oct 25, 2020
300
Man, fuck that, I'm sorry you have to deal with them. Next time you should pull up in the flashiest cosplay you can find, just to be spiteful lmfao.
 

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