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- Feb 10, 2020
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hey. anyone else have health OCD (or health anxiety) and get panic and survival instinct over feeling a little unwell or having general aches and pains?
I had a severe reaction to a medication one time that resulted in me being unable to walk for a year and triggered my OCD into developing a 'fear of health problems' department.
When I had the reaction that disabled me back then, it came on within just an hour. I went from being able to walk to being in excruciating pain and bedridden for a year because no one could figure out what was causing it. This made me incredibly, almost debilitatingly petrified of any 'unfamiliar' feelings in my body because it reminds me of how quickly my legs stopped working —after starting with just a tingling feeling—and the terror and uncertainty that followed. (I've recovered from the reaction almost entirely now, it was years ago.)
Anyways, I'm trying to wrap my head around how I'll cope with the physical effects of SN before unconsciousness. Can anyone else relate at all?
(I'm in therapy for OCD but obviously can't tell my therapist that what I really want to work on overcoming my body's physical instinct to live.)
I had a severe reaction to a medication one time that resulted in me being unable to walk for a year and triggered my OCD into developing a 'fear of health problems' department.
When I had the reaction that disabled me back then, it came on within just an hour. I went from being able to walk to being in excruciating pain and bedridden for a year because no one could figure out what was causing it. This made me incredibly, almost debilitatingly petrified of any 'unfamiliar' feelings in my body because it reminds me of how quickly my legs stopped working —after starting with just a tingling feeling—and the terror and uncertainty that followed. (I've recovered from the reaction almost entirely now, it was years ago.)
Anyways, I'm trying to wrap my head around how I'll cope with the physical effects of SN before unconsciousness. Can anyone else relate at all?
(I'm in therapy for OCD but obviously can't tell my therapist that what I really want to work on overcoming my body's physical instinct to live.)