Health issues causing depression

[StarsAbove]

Not sure where to put this post exactly. Are your health issues causing depression or the source of your SI? I believe I have hEDS which causes all sorts of issues. One of the most frustrating ones is MCAS where I have to constantly scrutinize everything I eat to keep my mast cell levels in check otherwise I get a lot of horrible symptoms including bad depression and anxiety.

I just found out that no anti depressants meds will help because the depression is caused by neuroinflammation. The only thing that will help is getting on mast cell stabilizers. Im going to try but with the last insurance I had, the meds were insanely expensive, like $300+ a month. If I cannot get the right treatment, it will be all the more fuel for me to want to CTB

 

[unluckysadness]

Yes my health issues are causing me severe depression. We're a lot here experiencing this.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Yeah, the health issues I have definitely contribute to my depression. Antidepressants don't work for me, either.

 

[whaleandwasp]

Absolutely. I had bouts of depression earlier in life, and I was a hypochondriac until I finally suffered a real, catastrophic, life-changing injury that is robbing me of my ability to eat, drink, or speak. It is the source of around-the-clock anxiety and panic attacks, and I live in constant pain. The surgeries I need to salvage what function I have left are risky and can make me worse off. They can't even be performed for a lengthy period of time, and only a few surgeons in the country are known to do these surgeries. I'm on the verge of losing my home and the benefits I need for my specialized care, and no one gives a shit. I have looked into some expensive treatments that could help buy me some time and retain some function while waiting for restorative surgery, but I'm barely making it on my short-term disability pay as it is. So I'm just waiting for a miracle and comparing fares for one-way bus tickets to nowhere.

 

[StarryEyed]

@StarsAbove, I'm so sorry you're suffering so much. Definitely my physical illnesses are one of the main reasons I'm depressed. As well, some of my mental illnesses are linked to depression. So antidepressants give me a boost for a few months, then they stop working. So I have learned to only use them in emergency as a rescue drug for a few months to pull me out of a total face-plant. Is it possible that might work? Also, I've done a lot of different therapies to manage my thoughts and feelings. Therapies aren't always just about curing an illness, but can also be used in managing an illness - as you probably know.

On most days, I've come to accept that I will likely chronically mostly have a depressed perception and experience of the world. Sometimes I want to give up still (as you know), but it's also possible to adapt and survive like this. Like someone said here, a lot of people on this forum live with illness and depression while not wanting to be alive. It takes a special kind of moxy.

 

[StarsAbove]

Yeah, the health issues I have definitely contribute to my depression. Antidepressants don't work for me, either.

Do you think the health related depression is situational or neurochemical? Is depression common with your condition?

Absolutely. I had bouts of depression earlier in life, and I was a hypochondriac until I finally suffered a real, catastrophic, life-changing injury that is robbing me of my ability to eat, drink, or speak. It is the source of around-the-clock anxiety and panic attacks, and I live in constant pain. The surgeries I need to salvage what function I have left are risky and can make me worse off. They can't even be performed for a lengthy period of time, and only a few surgeons in the country are known to do these surgeries. I'm on the verge of losing my home and the benefits I need for my specialized care, and no one gives a shit. I have looked into some expensive treatments that could help buy me some time and retain some function while waiting for restorative surgery, but I'm barely making it on my short-term disability pay as it is. So I'm just waiting for a miracle and comparing fares for one-way bus tickets to nowhere.

That is heartbreaking. I really wish the health and social service system wasn't failing you. If you had a GoFundMe I would totally donate.

 

[Musiclover338]

I got a failed attempt on benzos & alcohol that messed me up pretty bad.... ears constantly ringing and popping, head hurts in one spot. almost daily. Have spent alot of Mris and CT scans but doctors cant find anything wrong.

basically i was fine and healthy before i tried to overdose ! dont try to overdose guys its not worth it

 

[StarsAbove]

@StarsAbove, I'm so sorry you're suffering so much. Definitely my physical illnesses are one of the main reasons I'm depressed. As well, some of my mental illnesses are linked to depression. So antidepressants give me a boost for a few months, then they stop working. So I have learned to only use them in emergency as a rescue drug for a few months to pull me out of a total face-plant. Is it possible that might work? Also, I've done a lot of different therapies to manage my thoughts and feelings. Therapies aren't always just about curing an illness, but can also be used in managing an illness - as you probably know.

On most days, I've come to accept that I will likely chronically mostly have a depressed perception and experience of the world. Sometimes I want to give up still (as you know), but it's also possible to adapt and survive like this. Like someone said here, a lot of people on this forum live with illness and depression while not wanting to be alive. It takes a special kind of moxy.

Thank you. Sometimes I feel like I have better perspective and can say that it is not so bad, and other days I spiral. Its maybe not my health that is so awful but my overreaction to my health. I am not sure if I actually should be alarmed or if I am gaslighting myself into thinking im overreacting when im not. have seen people with really significant health issues that seem happy anyway and I wish I could be like that. Like you said, it is about being able to learn to live with it. I am glad that you have been able to manage your own feelings about your health, that is not easy!

I got a failed attempt on benzos & alcohol that messed me up pretty bad.... ears constantly ringing and popping, head hurts in one spot. almost daily. Have spent alot of Mris and CT scans but doctors cant find anything wrong.

basically i was fine and healthy before i tried to overdose ! dont try to overdose guys its not worth it

I am so sorry
You were obviously trying to escape something heavy and that feels cruel that you are now also dealing with this. By any chance do you have the ability to see an alternative Dr.?