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Archness

Archness

Defective Personel
Jan 20, 2023
500
Anyone else feels like their head's getting more and more empty?

Less emotion, more anhedonia, less thought, less will to live. Why? Because time's just passing and waiting till death.

I used to have loads of thoughts, opinions, feelings, etc. Before that, I was like an automita fully ignorant of exsistance.
Then I was "Elevated"... That's the best way I can describe my mind changing since those years.

But now I'm falling, but still knowing about this cursed reality I find myself in.

These ideas, wasted and forgotten. My potential melting away by entropy. Running out of will to keep going, as my world goes dim and my head follows suit.

Don't have the energy to think or feel even. Poker face 24/7.

God, I went from useless autist to someone who knows they can go to a higher level,
But I got "blackpilled", it's hopeless, isn't it? Simply born with the wrong variables.

It's all emptying out, I'll be hollow forevermore. I should be dead, while there's always a chance it'll get better, sometimes you're just in the worst timeline. A point of no return is inevitable, then I'll ctb.
 
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sadgvn

sadgvn

Member
Mar 21, 2023
9
I know what you mean, life seems to be just the same thing everyday. No matter how much you fill it with games or drugs, or whatever. Just keeping going for who even knows what.
 
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Primrose_Elise

Primrose_Elise

New Member
Mar 11, 2023
1
It feels like that, it's just emptiness.
Honestly, only times that I've felt something during that emptiness was when I saw depressing videos or writings and then I'm sad.
I get the whole tiring part, it sucks.
 
NoLoveNoHope

NoLoveNoHope

Mage
Mar 25, 2023
566
I remember reading something about psychological death on here, maybe just looking into that and see if that's what you're going through I remember an old thread where a ton of people shared the same experience.
 
Archness

Archness

Defective Personel
Jan 20, 2023
500
I remember reading something about psychological death on here, maybe just looking into that and see if that's what you're going through I remember an old thread where a ton of people shared the same experience.
Yeah some people say that's what happening to me.
Can you share a link to that thread?
 
NoLoveNoHope

NoLoveNoHope

Mage
Mar 25, 2023
566
Yeah some people say that's what happening to me.
Can you share a link to that thread?
Not exactly one on psychological death but similar. You also seem to have had an input on it.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,478
Yes, my existence certainly is very empty and I've felt that way for such a long time. Life certainly is just a futile process that I've never wanted anything to do with, I have no interest in this, I'm just existing and waiting to finally cease being here. There is no value to feeling trapped in a world where all that is inevitable is suffering, decay and loss. Just simply existing in this world is something tiring that makes the thought of non existence sound so incredibly appealing.
 
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m1v

m1v

Eternal flower fields
Feb 27, 2023
129
I get that. I feel the same way too, it feels like I don't have any emotions, it also feels like I've lost the ability to 'feel' pleasure. I'm pretty much a living statue, it's just standing here, rotting day by day. I would like to give you my tip, set a unique date, and try your best to get better until that date, or just try new things out, doing things you wouldn't normally do. (Well if you even have enough energy) If it doesn't, only you know what to do. Please stay strong! Keep pushing until it ends. :)
 
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Archness

Archness

Defective Personel
Jan 20, 2023
500
I get that. I feel the same way too, it feels like I don't have any emotions, it also feels like I've lost the ability to 'feel' pleasure. I'm pretty much a living statue, it's just standing here, rotting day by day. I would like to give you my tip, set a unique date, and try your best to get better until that date, or just try new things out, doing things you wouldn't normally do. (Well if you even have enough energy) If it doesn't, only you know what to do. Please stay strong! Keep pushing until it ends. :)
Yeah. That day'll prob be DEC 1st. My birthday. 2024-2025 will be the tipping point. Do or die.
 
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