emptymiku
bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
- Mar 27, 2023
- 211
the person i like told me today that he has a girlfriend. it registered so normally in my brain, like it was such a normal sentence.
it took about 10 minutes for me to start sobbing.
the thought that i have projects planned with him, and that i'll have to complete those to avoid making him upset, makes me want to throw up.
i feel so dead that i might as well be.
inagining him with someone else, being so happy, just makes me feel so indescribably terrible.
i'm keeping so many secrets from everyone. i thought my life couldn't get any worse, but i was wrong. again.
i can't feel anything. i can't do anything but just laugh. this is the most miserable i've felt in a long time.
"it always gets better" is a lie. you're lying to me. it will never get better for me.
i wish i was dead.
it took about 10 minutes for me to start sobbing.
the thought that i have projects planned with him, and that i'll have to complete those to avoid making him upset, makes me want to throw up.
i feel so dead that i might as well be.
inagining him with someone else, being so happy, just makes me feel so indescribably terrible.
i'm keeping so many secrets from everyone. i thought my life couldn't get any worse, but i was wrong. again.
i can't feel anything. i can't do anything but just laugh. this is the most miserable i've felt in a long time.
"it always gets better" is a lie. you're lying to me. it will never get better for me.
i wish i was dead.