Venting Having to live without a soulmate/twinflame is painful

[BlueButterfly111]

This post is for anyone who believes in things like soulmates or twinflames. If you don't believe in that stuff just disregard this post.

I'm still waiting on my Sn to arrive and it's so painful, the wait. I miss him constantly and I think about him all the time. I daydream about him. He's not really dead to me. I feel like he had to be from the same soul group as me, because the connection we had was so strong. It's like I knew him in a past life, he just felt very familiar to me.

After he died I started researching things about soul connections, and I researched a lot about twinflames. Apparently it's really painful for twinflames to be away from each other even if they are still alive. And that's how I felt with him, but now he's dead and I want to be dead with him.

There are some days that maybe I think I'm just being delusional about all of this. But the signs are all there, I've seen many. Synchronicities, signs, dreams, awakenings… It's literally just driving me crazy, he's everywhere, and yet I can't be with him physically.

I wanted to post this in a twinflame community but I got banned from the subreddit I think because I said that I wanted to die, or I wish it would've been me instead of him.

 

[milkteacrown]

I'm so sorry for your loss. The idea of a soulmate/twin flame is a very comforting one. I like to think that mine exists somewhere in this world, too.

 

[Hikari.]

This post is for anyone who believes in things like soulmates or twinflames. If you don't believe in that stuff just disregard this post.

I'm still waiting on my Sn to arrive and it's so painful, the wait. I miss him constantly and I think about him all the time. I daydream about him. He's not really dead to me. I feel like he had to be from the same soul group as me, because the connection we had was so strong. It's like I knew him in a past life, he just felt very familiar to me.

After he died I started researching things about soul connections, and I researched a lot about twinflames. Apparently it's really painful for twinflames to be away from each other even if they are still alive. And that's how I felt with him, but now he's dead and I want to be dead with him.

There are some days that maybe I think I'm just being delusional about all of this. But the signs are all there, I've seen many. Synchronicities, signs, dreams, awakenings… It's literally just driving me crazy, he's everywhere, and yet I can't be with him physically.

I wanted to post this in a twinflame community but I got banned from the subreddit I think because I said that I wanted to die, or I wish it would've been me instead of him.

I like to think i'm not ready for one yet. I need to mature more and love myself before i can love others.

 

[genie]

My soulmate is in a parallel universe/alternate dimension I think. If I had made a different choice in life, I probably would've met her

 

[BlueButterfly111]

My soulmate is in a parallel universe/alternate dimension I think. If I had made a different choice in life, I probably would've met her

That's what I used to think before I met Henry. I don't think it's your fault, I personally feel like the universe put me and Henry together before our deaths in this lifetime. I was with him for almost a year, and then he died 7 months ago. I've been suicidal for the last 10 years, but now I'm sure that I'm ready to go. You will probably find yours hopefully in a parallel universe/alternate dimension. I felt like I probably already met him in a different lifetime, and I'm hoping I can find him again after I die. This lifetime never felt right to me, I'm an old soul, I need to go home! And I made a lot of mistakes too, but glad I met him!

 

[divinemistress36]

I like to think i'm not ready for one yet. I need to mature more and love myself before i can love others.

I agree with this when our energy is negative we attract other negative energy people

 

[SnowLeopard21]

Maybe I'll find one in the next life. There's nobody and nothing for me here.

 

[MeowWantsToGoHome]

I also believe that when I CTB, me and my soulmate will be together again. Ever since I became aware of him after regaining my memories of our past life together, it's been the most painful, heart-clawing longing I've ever experienced. I have a hard time accurately capturing what it feels like in words, but I know you understand the pain I'm talking about. That coupled with the fact that I just feel so displaced in this life has made me realize I don't want to prolong these feelings any longer. I can't wait to see him and hold him again. May you and your special one find each other again too in the end.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I also believe that when I CTB, me and my soulmate will be together again. Ever since I became aware of him after regaining my memories of our past life together, it's been the most painful, heart-clawing longing I've ever experienced. I have a hard time accurately capturing what it feels like in words, but I know you understand the pain I'm talking about. That coupled with the fact that I just feel so displaced in this life has made me realize I don't want to prolong these feelings any longer. I can't wait to see him and hold him again. May you and your special one find each other again too in the end.

Wow, that's so beautiful. I'm so sorry for your pain as well. And thank you so much it's always so nice to meet a fellow believer in finding your soulmate again beyond this lifetime. May you be reunited with yours as well!

 

[zixd]

Same thing i dont have a soulmate and i never had a gf before i'm a guy now 27 yo

 

[SnowLeopard21]

Same thing i dont have a soulmate and i never had a gf before i'm a guy now 27 yo

I've had one and I thought she was a soulmate or whatever but it turned out not only was she a manipulator she was also physically abusive and kept me trapped for 3 years of my life in a pattern of fear. I'm convinced now that such a thing as a soulmate doesn't exist but if you asked me when I was 22 if soulmates existed I probably would have said yes. Life just gets worse with time and the more I find myself as a person the less I feel like I can connect to others and less likely it is for me to find someone else I mesh with, let alone as a romantic partner.

 

[zixd]

I've had one and I thought she was a soulmate or whatever but it turned out not only was she a manipulator she was also physically abusive and kept me trapped for 3 years of my life in a pattern of fear. I'm convinced now that such a thing as a soulmate doesn't exist but if you asked me when I was 22 if soulmates existed I probably would have said yes. Life just gets worse with time and the more I find myself as a person the less I feel like I can connect to others and less likely it is for me to find someone else I mesh with, let alone as a romantic partner.

Can you send me a message till we can chat ?

 

[ForeverCaHa]

I am in the exact same position as you. I made the stupid decision to end our relationship which resulted in his CTB. Ever since he passed not an hour goes by that I don't think of him, what we would be doing now if he hadn't left, beating myself up over all of the 'what if's. All I want now is to be with him again, and hopefully soon I'll have the opportunity to reconnect in one form or another.

I am sorry for your loss, I understand only too well how painful an experience it is.

 

[sadalways]

You know, i read this post a few days ago and i was like huh interesting. But now, today, I don't know what it unlocked in my brain, i've never had a soul mate or a twinflame, i never experienced love in the slightest which makes me really really sad, but i looked into these terms on google, read some articles and now what brings me comfort is thinking that i will get to meet that someone after i die. Like a soul that meets another soul, and they are happy forever with each other. Not sure if that makes any sense In my thoughts its like, maybe my soulmate that i was supposed to meet died already, maybe that's why i've never felt love, i don't know if it works like that but maybe they are waiting for me? I'm not sure, i hope i don't sound too crazy, but this is my new favorite thing to think about and it makes me happy. Way better than dreading overthinking about what happens after. Thank you for making this post, really. I wish you the best

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I am in the exact same position as you. I made the stupid decision to end our relationship which resulted in his CTB. Ever since he passed not an hour goes by that I don't think of him, what we would be doing now if he hadn't left, beating myself up over all of the 'what if's. All I want now is to be with him again, and hopefully soon I'll have the opportunity to reconnect in one form or another.

I am sorry for your loss, I understand only too well how painful an experience it is.

Omg I resonate with your words so much, I'm so sorry! I also feel like I made a lot of stupid mistakes, I'm so sorry that you feel that way as well, it's horrible!

He's like on my mind 24/7, I can still feel his presence sometimes, so I'm hoping that's a sign that I will be with him again when I die. I hope that you can be reunited with your loved one soon. And hopefully I'll be there soon as well.

Is it okay if I ask how long it's been since he passed away? It's okay if you don't want to answer, I just wish to talk to someone who's been through the same thing sometimes. If you want to chat anytime, you can pm me if you want. All the best I'm so sorry.

You know, i read this post a few days ago and i was like huh interesting. But now, today, I don't know what it unlocked in my brain, i've never had a soul mate or a twinflame, i never experienced love in the slightest which makes me really really sad, but i looked into these terms on google, read some articles and now what brings me comfort is thinking that i will get to meet that someone after i die. Like a soul that meets another soul, and they are happy forever with each other. Not sure if that makes any sense In my thoughts its like, maybe my soulmate that i was supposed to meet died already, maybe that's why i've never felt love, i don't know if it works like that but maybe they are waiting for me? I'm not sure, i hope i don't sound too crazy, but this is my new favorite thing to think about and it makes me happy. Way better than dreading overthinking about what happens after. Thank you for making this post, really. I wish you the best

Awww thank you so much! That's so sweet, I really appreciate it. I have seen some suggestions that maybe you will meet them after you die. I wish you all the best as well, your reply made me smile!

 

[outrider567]

This post is for anyone who believes in things like soulmates or twinflames. If you don't believe in that stuff just disregard this post.

I'm still waiting on my Sn to arrive and it's so painful, the wait. I miss him constantly and I think about him all the time. I daydream about him. He's not really dead to me. I feel like he had to be from the same soul group as me, because the connection we had was so strong. It's like I knew him in a past life, he just felt very familiar to me.

After he died I started researching things about soul connections, and I researched a lot about twinflames. Apparently it's really painful for twinflames to be away from each other even if they are still alive. And that's how I felt with him, but now he's dead and I want to be dead with him.

There are some days that maybe I think I'm just being delusional about all of this. But the signs are all there, I've seen many. Synchronicities, signs, dreams, awakenings… It's literally just driving me crazy, he's everywhere, and yet I can't be with him physically.

I wanted to post this in a twinflame community but I got banned from the subreddit I think because I said that I wanted to die, or I wish it would've been me instead of him.

That's how I feel, still can't believe she's gone, even three years later, its been just a soulless and empty existence ever since

 

[BlueButterfly111]

That's how I feel, still can't believe she's gone, even three years later, its been just a soulless and empty existence ever since

I'm so sorry about your pain. Three years without them, I can't even imagine. I hope that you will find some peace eventually. I haven't been able to, and it's only been 7 months for me. I wish that there was something I could say to make it better, I wish you all the best.

 

[Valhala]

I met her and lost her by ending the relationship. That connection is incredible and impermanent, but the awareness of living without her day by day kills you, easily.