Having to have sex with strangers when u are heartbroken

[Final Escape]

imagine u are devastated over someone and yet u still have to fuck other people because that's how u make your living. It's so hard right now bc the heartbreak killed my sex drive. So it's been awkward wen I have to see different guys. It's incredibly hard not to want to cry during sex bc I know it's not him and I'll never see him again :(" its brutal

 

[jgm63]

imagine u are devastated over someone and yet u still have to fuck other people because that's how u make your living. It's so hard right now bc the heartbreak killed my sex drive. So it's been awkward wen I have to see different guys. It's incredibly hard not to want to cry during sex bc I know it's not him and I'll never see him again :(" its brutal

Very sorry to hear about your situation.
Would there be any way for you to get a disability income or other means of financial support ?

 

[Backwood_tilt]

I keep chasing the experience of sex i had with my ex who recently dumped me.

Has not been going well so far.

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about your situation and I hope you are able to find some other income and be at peace.

 

[Final Escape]

I don't like the idea of gov dependency so that's out. I can't hold a normal job for long. I just have to ctb and accept my life has to be cut short. At least I got to live to be past 40, not happily but many pple die b4 that age these days as the economy continues to get worse and more pple are in dire straits. As the book by Aaron Clarey says, enjoy the decline of the US as the socialists and communists take it over and will make most people equally poor.

 

[jgm63]

I don't like the idea of gov dependency so that's out. I can't hold a normal job for long. I just have to ctb and accept my life has to be cut short. At least I got to live to be past 40, not happily but many pple die b4 that age these days as the economy continues to get worse and more pple are in dire straits. As the book by Aaron Clarey says, enjoy the decline.

ok, well I hope you can receive enough love from this site to be able to get by in the interim....

 

[TAW122]

I don't like the idea of gov dependency so that's out. I can't hold a normal job for long. I just have to ctb and accept my life has to be cut short. At least I got to live to be past 40, not happily but many pple die b4 that age these days as the economy continues to get worse and more pple are in dire straits. As the book by Aaron Clarey says, enjoy the decline of the US as the socialists and communists take it over and will make most people equally poor.

I actually have a few books by Clarey and he is indeed an interesting character. I watched many of his videos as well as they are quite interesting. One of my favorite ones was when he talked about Smith & Wesson Retirement Plan.

 

[Moonicide]

Sometimes I can be so impulsive and self destructive that I do want to be intimate with strangers and not think about anything for a little bit. But in the end I always hold myself back because I know I'd hate myself even more if I went through with it. It won't stop my heart from hurting, and getting fucked isn't love. I want love.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

imagine u are devastated over someone and yet u still have to fuck other people because that's how u make your living. It's so hard right now bc the heartbreak killed my sex drive. So it's been awkward wen I have to see different guys. It's incredibly hard not to want to cry during sex bc I know it's not him and I'll never see him again :(" its brutal

So sorry you are going through this. I know what it's like to miss an ex. Feels like I'm cheating on them when I'm with someone else.
I'm not looking for sex but …. sometimes it happens. I don't even really want sex, I don't know why I allow it to happen.
I've said on here before (I think) that I could care less about sex and I still feel that way. If it doesn't happen again, I'm ok.
At least I think so ... I don't know anymore. I can't wait to die so I don't have to deal with any of this shit anymore.

 

[PwincessStepford]

I don't like the idea of gov dependency so that's out. I can't hold a normal job for long. I just have to ctb and accept my life has to be cut short. At least I got to live to be past 40, not happily but many pple die b4 that age these days as the economy continues to get worse and more pple are in dire straits. As the book by Aaron Clarey says, enjoy the decline of the US as the socialists and communists take it over and will make most people equally poor.

I know you don't like the idea of it, but maybe you can swallow your pride, at least temporarily (and I say this as a Republican)? Because the alternative is suicide...And I'm sorry, but I don't believe having sex with strangers is helping your mental health.

 

[nitrogen]

I don't like the idea of gov dependency so that's out.
I just have to ctb and accept my life has to be cut short.

The idea of prostitution is better than gov dependency? Interesting. Sounds like ppl who choose gov dependency over selling their body for money preserve more dignity and self-respect. But hey, it's your life and body, only you get to decide what you wanna do with it.

A finding from a large study involved 8560 prostitutes reveals that for each increase of a year in age, a prostitute's hourly wage decreases 4.5 percent. Looked at another way, Sohn found that prostitutes between ages 35 and 40 earned 52.8 percent less per hour than women under 20.



https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/...7/link-between-prostitutes-age-and-her-income

You're right that you might have to ctb soon if you don't find another income source. It probably won't make financial sense to continue to work as a sex worker, given your age. FYI, soon you might not be able to spend so much time on this site, since the decreased hourly wage has to be made up by work hours and/or extreme sex acts such as golden shower gangbang as the worst example off the top of my mind.

However, there may be entrepreneurial opportunities where the value of your experience can outweigh age-related decreases in sexual desirability.

Sorry about the bluntness. I'm just giving honest opinions rather than a motivational speech.

 

[Lefty]

I don't like the idea of gov dependency so that's out. I can't hold a normal job for long. I just have to ctb and accept my life has to be cut short. At least I got to live to be past 40, not happily but many pple die b4 that age these days as the economy continues to get worse and more pple are in dire straits. As the book by Aaron Clarey says, enjoy the decline of the US as the socialists and communists take it over and will make most people equally poor.

I find this post to be interesting. I also lean on the conservative side of the political spectrum, but I think welfare is ok in small doses or when you really need it. Though I also think you make good points in your post. Regarding your first post, that is just rough. I hope you can find something better. *hug*

 

[k75]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I understand how hard it is to have to push through a loss like that.

I'm in a similar situation, only for me, it's by choice. Strangers who don't care about me help me not to feel, like a warped coping mechanism. It's dangerous and stupid, but that makes me do it more.

 

[Final Escape]

The idea of prostitution is better than gov dependency? Interesting. Sounds like ppl who choose gov dependency over selling their body for money preserve more dignity and self-respect. But hey, it's your life and body, only you get to decide what you wanna do with it.

A finding from a large study involved 8560 prostitutes reveals that for each increase of a year in age, a prostitute's hourly wage decreases 4.5 percent. Looked at another way, Sohn found that prostitutes between ages 35 and 40 earned 52.8 percent less per hour than women under 20.

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https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/...7/link-between-prostitutes-age-and-her-income

You're right that you might have to ctb soon if you don't find another income source. It probably won't make financial sense to continue to work as a sex worker, given your age. FYI, soon you might not be able to spend so much time on this site, since the decreased hourly wage has to be made up by work hours and/or extreme sex acts such as golden shower gangbang as the worst example off the top of my mind.

However, there may be entrepreneurial opportunities where the value of your experience can outweigh age-related decreases in sexual desirability.

Sorry about the bluntness. I'm just giving honest opinions rather than a motivational speech.

At least I'm not a parasiting off the productivity of others, to me there's more dignity in supporting myself to the best of my ability regardless if it's damaging to myself. If my life is cut short because of it, nobody cares ultimately. I was a throwaway from the start anyway.

The idea of prostitution is better than gov dependency? Interesting. Sounds like ppl who choose gov dependency over selling their body for money preserve more dignity and self-respect. But hey, it's your life and body, only you get to decide what you wanna do with it.

A finding from a large study involved 8560 prostitutes reveals that for each increase of a year in age, a prostitute's hourly wage decreases 4.5 percent. Looked at another way, Sohn found that prostitutes between ages 35 and 40 earned 52.8 percent less per hour than women under 20.

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https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/...7/link-between-prostitutes-age-and-her-income

You're right that you might have to ctb soon if you don't find another income source. It probably won't make financial sense to continue to work as a sex worker, given your age. FYI, soon you might not be able to spend so much time on this site, since the decreased hourly wage has to be made up by work hours and/or extreme sex acts such as golden shower gangbang as the worst example off the top of my mind.

However, there may be entrepreneurial opportunities where the value of your experience can outweigh age-related decreases in sexual desirability.

Sorry about the bluntness. I'm just giving honest opinions rather than a motivational speech.

One thing that helps is I can choose who I see and I'll never have to do extreme sex acts or really scary shit. It's typically just standard sex or massages. Often not lengthy sessions. If I was a street prostitute then it's way worse. You can be a prostitute for a long time but u have to maintain your appearance stay in shape etc.

 

[nitrogen]

At least I'm not a parasiting off the productivity of others, to me there's more dignity in supporting myself to the best of my ability regardless if it's damaging to myself. If my life is cut short because of it, nobody cares ultimately. I was a throwaway from the start anyway.

One thing that helps is I can choose who I see and I'll never have to do extreme sex acts or really scary shit. It's typically just standard sex or massages. Often not lengthy sessions. If I was a street prostitute then it's way worse. You can be a prostitute for a long time but u have to maintain your appearance stay in shape etc.

@Final Escape Hey there. It dawned on me that I was being narrow-minded and passed judgment on your occupation in my last post on this thread. I justified it by calling it "blunt honest opinions". I'm not you and I've never been through your pain. I have no right to judge you. I do admire you for being self-sufficient rather than being a parasite. Upon self-reflection, the reason why I was judgmental is that I'm the opposite of you - I'm living off the productivity of my husband and the privileges that come with me winning the birth lottery.

Anyway, I'd like to sincerely apologize to you. I hope you find peace and happiness. I'm apparently flawed in many ways.

 

[Final Escape]

@Final Escape Hey there. It dawned on me that I was being narrow-minded and passed judgment on your occupation in my last post on this thread. I justified it by calling it "blunt honest opinions". I'm not you and I've never been through your pain. I have no right to judge you. I do admire you for being self-sufficient rather than being a parasite. Upon self-reflection, the reason why I was judgmental is that I'm the opposite of you - I'm living off the productivity of my husband and the privileges that come with me winning the birth lottery.

Anyway, I'd like to sincerely apologize to you. I hope you find peace and happiness. I'm apparently flawed in many ways.

You don't seem flawed. U don't need to apologize. I will never find those things but I appreciate the kind words :)

 

[TheLastSacrifice]

imagine u are devastated over someone and yet u still have to fuck other people because that's how u make your living. It's so hard right now bc the heartbreak killed my sex drive. So it's been awkward wen I have to see different guys. It's incredibly hard not to want to cry during sex bc I know it's not him and I'll never see him again :(" its brutal

I have issues if I try to fuck another woman. The physical is still there, i am a guy after all but the emotional part kills me. I couldn't even imagine having to do this as a job. Hats off for being able to deal with that. Makes me hurt just thinking about it.

The idea of prostitution is better than gov dependency? Interesting. Sounds like ppl who choose gov dependency over selling their body for money preserve more dignity and self-respect. But hey, it's your life and body, only you get to decide what you wanna do with it.

A finding from a large study involved 8560 prostitutes reveals that for each increase of a year in age, a prostitute's hourly wage decreases 4.5 percent. Looked at another way, Sohn found that prostitutes between ages 35 and 40 earned 52.8 percent less per hour than women under 20.

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https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/...7/link-between-prostitutes-age-and-her-income

You're right that you might have to ctb soon if you don't find another income source. It probably won't make financial sense to continue to work as a sex worker, given your age. FYI, soon you might not be able to spend so much time on this site, since the decreased hourly wage has to be made up by work hours and/or extreme sex acts such as golden shower gangbang as the worst example off the top of my mind.

However, there may be entrepreneurial opportunities where the value of your experience can outweigh age-related decreases in sexual desirability.

Sorry about the bluntness. I'm just giving honest opinions rather than a motivational speech.

My goodness you were being very judgemental towards sex workers. You also don't know what you are talking about in regards to her aging. If she knows how to approach the right customers being old won't end it until she gets OLD old. There is a skill to the trade. It's not just about bend over lift the skirt and spread em. Narrow minded and shallow as hell was that comment.

 

[HadEnough1974]

The idea of prostitution is better than gov dependency? Interesting. Sounds like ppl who choose gov dependency over selling their body for money preserve more dignity and self-respect. But hey, it's your life and body, only you get to decide what you wanna do with it.

A finding from a large study involved 8560 prostitutes reveals that for each increase of a year in age, a prostitute's hourly wage decreases 4.5 percent. Looked at another way, Sohn found that prostitutes between ages 35 and 40 earned 52.8 percent less per hour than women under 20.

View attachment 23196

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/...7/link-between-prostitutes-age-and-her-income

You're right that you might have to ctb soon if you don't find another income source. It probably won't make financial sense to continue to work as a sex worker, given your age. FYI, soon you might not be able to spend so much time on this site, since the decreased hourly wage has to be made up by work hours and/or extreme sex acts such as golden shower gangbang as the worst example off the top of my mind.

However, there may be entrepreneurial opportunities where the value of your experience can outweigh age-related decreases in sexual desirability.

Sorry about the bluntness. I'm just giving honest opinions rather than a motivational speech.

Lawyers and sex workers make about the same. As for the OP, do what you need to do to survive. I'm sorry for what you're going through. Hugs.

 

[jgm63]

I have issues if I try to fuck another woman. The physical is still there, i am a guy after all but the emotional part kills me. I couldn't even imagine having to do this as a job. Hats off for being able to deal with that. Makes me hurt just thinking about it.

My goodness you were being very judgemental towards sex workers. You also don't know what you are talking about in regards to her aging. If she knows how to approach the right customers being old won't end it until she gets OLD old. There is a skill to the trade. It's not just about bend over lift the skirt and spread em. Narrow minded and shallow as hell was that comment.

Although keep in mind that they did post again (see above) and "correct" that comment to a large degree, so we don't necessarily need to "dig up" their first comment again....

 

[Final Escape]

I have issues if I try to fuck another woman. The physical is still there, i am a guy after all but the emotional part kills me. I couldn't even imagine having to do this as a job. Hats off for being able to deal with that. Makes me hurt just thinking about it.

My goodness you were being very judgemental towards sex workers. You also don't know what you are talking about in regards to her aging. If she knows how to approach the right customers being old won't end it until she gets OLD old. There is a skill to the trade. It's not just about bend over lift the skirt and spread em. Narrow minded and shallow as hell was that comment.

You can be a prostitute even when u get old believe it or not. But u will likely need to be on hormone replacement so you aren't dry down there and to help libido. A sex worker girlfriend of mine was 60 and she was still raking it in. She mostly did massage with happy ending.

 

[TheLastSacrifice]

Although keep in mind that they did post again (see above) and "correct" that comment to a large degree, so we don't necessarily need to "dig up" their first comment again....

Pages aren't loading right. Didn't see the update. Sorry.

 

[netrezven]

I think i might feel the way you do at some point. It might be even tomorow. I have no idea how to go on another relantionship, since i never had any other. if i have to imagine this happens, i won't start dating anyone i meet. I would not trust anyone i go on. My hope now is that there is a chance to meet someone who can be happy with and without me. Even if there is any kind of sings of emotional abuse i will leave with a blink of an eye from now on-this is 100%. This is my 3rd night in about 10-14days i can't sleep because i said that i feel abused and hopeless and i might not care anymore very soon. Maybie it's time to remove my list with people i can't hurt.

 

[enjoy]

my ex dumped me a while back and that's what i've been up to since. they say that the best way to get over someone is get under someone else. remember that while we're human, we're still animals and we are mentally wired to seek out sex (unless you identify as asexual). if you try to get over someone by means of sex and meet someone who screws you like your ex never could've, you'll be over your ex by the morning.

 

[Final Escape]

my ex dumped me a while back and that's what i've been up to since. they say that the best way to get over someone is get under someone else. remember that while we're human, we're still animals and we are mentally wired to seek out sex (unless you identify as asexual). if you try to get over someone by means of sex and meet someone who screws you like your ex never could've, you'll be over your ex by the morning.

Lol! Made me giggle

 

[exhausted]

I was in a similar situation so I understand how you feel and I hate to remember. It's hard to be a sensitive soul and do that work, it's tough even if you aren't sensitive. I don't know what to say, but it will get better. Time will soothe it.

 

[Mort]

My self I not had sex in years i think last time was about ten years ago. I just cant get that close to sum one fiscal or emotionally