hmskms

hmskms

trying to escape a world governed by sociopaths.
Jun 12, 2023
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what could possibly make up for all this suffering. i dont even think ill "die" if i kill myself. im already in this bullshit, why should there ever be "a way out"?

there's just no way im destined for anything but hell. those who find meaning in their struggles literally never have this problem, but no, im the only organism who had to ask what this is for. then they'll get mad at me like this isn't what the fuck they signed up for (?) it only makes sense theyre doing it to piss me off on something or someone's behalf, or they'd just shut the fuck up. how else would they know they're getting to me otherwise? do they really need me to die that much? couldnt be possible, so they must want me here to suffer, for reasons beyond my comprehension.

why does anyone even need me to be here? why is my suffering such a demand? cant they just get on with their boring lives without me? whats this horseshit test for? why cant they just accept im not cut out for this?