Venting Having Nembutal to ctb with would be self care for me

[FuneralCry]

I see suicide as self care as it's the way to escape and prevent all future unnecessary suffering in this meaningless existence where there is endless potential for cruelty, torment and harm. Having access to Nembutal would solve everything for me, I wish for a peaceful death which is like never waking again, it comforts me to think of an dreamless and eternal sleep erasing everything.

To me only eternal non-existence is ideal, I'd always see it as better that this existence disappears into nothingness. Nembutal needs to be accessible as I see suicide as the way to find safety from suffering, allowing people the option of Nembutal would be so incredibly compassionate and relieving.

In my case death truly is the only relief, there is no peace in being burdened with this existence, in fact existence itself is the true problem which for me is solved by death, I don't see any value in slowly dying in this harmful existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer. Suicide is self care to me as it solves everything and is the only way to find peace from this futile and hopeless existence, in fact I see allowing Nembutal as the solution to suffering.

 

[Dliena]

I can't really say much to this other then I hope that you yourself FC can eventually succumb to the sweet eternal peace that you crave.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I'm so sorry you are denied access to it.

 

[Doemu]

I hope you find the end of existence we both desire. My best wishes to you.

 

[DrPepper709]

I like the idea of seeing suicide as self-care, never thought of it that way, but you're completely right

 

[SilentSadness]

I also think suicide would be self care for me, it would be taking my suffering seriously. It's so exhausting to live just because others force me to, and I don't enjoy it at all.

 

[Specific_Milk]

The problem is N is almost impossible to get. Even if it's somehow available online it's still wayyy overpriced. It just sucks that society would rather let us suffer the most gruesome of methods in an effort to 'curb' suicide rate (which is not working because in almost all countries, suicide has risen). It's pathetic and cruel.

 

[mortuarymary]

I see suicide as self care as it's the way to escape and prevent all future unnecessary suffering in this meaningless existence where there is endless potential for cruelty, torment and harm. Having access to Nembutal would solve everything for me, I wish for a peaceful death which is like never waking again, it comforts me to think of an dreamless and eternal sleep erasing everything.

To me only eternal non-existence is ideal, I'd always see it as better that this existence disappears into nothingness. Nembutal needs to be accessible as I see suicide as the way to find safety from suffering, allowing people the option of Nembutal would be so incredibly compassionate and relieving.

In my case death truly is the only relief, there is no peace in being burdened with this existence, in fact existence itself is the true problem which for me is solved by death, I don't see any value in slowly dying in this harmful existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer. Suicide is self care to me as it solves everything and is the only way to find peace from this futile and hopeless existence, in fact I see allowing Nembutal as the solution to suffering.

If I had enough I'd share it x

 

[Guy_Smiley]

If I had enough I'd share it x

You have N? If so, did you have to travel abroad to get it?

 

[rotciv]

People are getting from Peru from what I've been reading.

 

[mortuarymary]

You have N? If so, did you have to travel abroad to get it?

No i didn't. Someone else was going to Mexico. It's years old now. Definitely past it sell by date.

 

[rozeske]

I love the sound of suicide as self care, never really thought of it like that. Kind of like a pamper I deserved and never really got to have.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm sorry for your suffering FC.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I think that suicide is self care too. After all, with a successful suicide attempt, you save yourself from pointless and cruel decades of suffering and I believe I deserve that for myself as I didn't do anything wrong and I never asked to be here to begin with. Yes, I may have failed to be a regular human being but I don't care. I still deserve compassion regardless and screw those who say otherwise. For me, suicide is the ultimate compassionate act I can do for myself