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leot83

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Jul 6, 2025
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Hello, does anyone here feel like they had something they care for so much, a target, an objective they wanted to achieve but were not able to achieve it. It feels horrible, like a failure. I cry every day because of this.
 
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euthanizeddog

euthanizeddog

tguy
Sep 16, 2025
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not exactly, more like a regret. i regret it every day and hate myself for ruining a good thing. i try to make up for it and fix my mistakes every day. you can always try again
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
506
Yes, I tried to go to medical school and managed to get in but I'm doing horribly. I was raised to care a lot about academic success and saw it as my main goal in life. I might have to drop out and I see it as a failed life.
 
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SoulWantsHome

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Aug 6, 2025
89
Hello, does anyone here feel like they had something they care for so much, a target, an objective they wanted to achieve but were not able to achieve it. It feels horrible, like a failure.
Definitely...

I had such big plans for making the world a better place. It's a personal project that I've been patiently working on for many years - and I had planned to reveal it to the world, some time in the near future. I had so many hopes and dreams for both myself and the world, and I knew exactly how to achieve them all.

But then shit recently happened, which caused me permanent damage, and thereby ruined my life. (That's the reason why I'm on this forum.) So, now I have to kill myself instead, because I can't live like this. Such is the tragedy of life...

As this famous quote goes:
"Life is what happens to you, while you're busy making other plans..."
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

whhaazzzzzuuupppp
May 21, 2025
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yea….killing myself lol
 
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58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
378
i kind of wish it was like this. this may sound like cope but i feel like there is this mysterious force which sabotaged everything i tried to do. it's sole purpose is to torment me. this doesn't necessarily mean i would have been succesful if it was not there
 
turbomightbegone

turbomightbegone

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Nov 13, 2023
202
I really wanted to escape my childhood home and pursue a career in digital art/animation..,,, unfortunately i got pulled out of school due to my mental health, and therefore never managed to finish my gcses. my mental health downspiralled to the point where i genuinely can't stand any social interaction whatsoever (with online stuff being somewhat of an exception). I've ended up dropping animation ages ago and im on the brink of dropping art too. I hate thinking about what my life objective was, mainly because it was my only ticket away from my abusive family since I didn't have a backup plan. currently stuck with either dying on the streets once I get thrown out of the house or dying on my own terms,, and I'd say it's mostly because I couldn't achieve the goal I was going for
 
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leot83

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Jul 6, 2025
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I really wanted to escape my childhood home and pursue a career in digital art/animation..,,, unfortunately i got pulled out of school due to my mental health, and therefore never managed to finish my gcses. my mental health downspiralled to the point where i genuinely can't stand any social interaction whatsoever (with online stuff being somewhat of an exception). I've ended up dropping animation ages ago and im on the brink of dropping art too. I hate thinking about what my life objective was, mainly because it was my only ticket away from my abusive family since I didn't have a backup plan. currently stuck with either dying on the streets once I get thrown out of the house or dying on my own terms,, and I'd say it's mostly because I couldn't achieve the goal I was going for
I take it you are in the UK.
Would you agree mental health cover is a disgrace in the UK?
I've stopped asking my useless GP for help.
 

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